I completely agree about others lives continuing- it feels like a parallel universe sometimes I think. Im not sure I’ve really completely accepted I have breast cancer- there is so much to take in and treatment stages to focus on. I just try to digest each stage at a time. I suspect it will be a while before I truly believe it’s happening (although I do logically know it is!). And yes, I live on the north east coast so we’re just 10mins from the beach and the sea. Just seeing the sea always makes me feel better!
I’m glad you have friends supporting too. It’s a real help to have that. I have been referred internally to the psychology team that is linked to cancer services in our hospital. And there are also a couple of charities close to me that offer counselling. I have also used the ‘someone like me’ service from breast cancer now, which isn’t counselling but is a nice support.
@athletics2025 I think the level headedness comes and goes! Ha! I’m only at the start with chemo too. I was diagnosed in April, had surgery May, and I’ve done 1 EC. I have 4 ECs and 4 paclatixel to do (fortnightly). Then plan is more surgery (I had the margins on the breast lump but not the lymph nodes so we need to do full clearance) and radiotherapy after that. It’s a lot of learning isn’t it?! I’m so glad you got to see your son 
How are you doing after the first chemo?
I got my wig today- which is far more realistic and close to my natural hair than I hoped for! How are others getting on with hair loss?
Well done @rugbygal1 for getting through the rough days! And hello @mikb14!