I was going to ask @emsd2025 if you’re nervous or excited after your appointment and add how brilliant it must feel to be going in to next stage but now you’ve answered it brings it home how every step is another scary hill to climb. Think how far you’ve come and how your amazing body has coped. It’s perfectly normal to get emotional just don’t hold it in I would say. You’re so close now to that next step, after my second EC yesterday here I am begging to finish, the nausea last night was vile and I just can’t wait to get this chemo done. I’m going to take the first few days easy this time to avoid the crash hopefully x I like the fact it’s a New Year tomorrow and we’re all gaining momentum in the spring, even though it’s the toughest and ugliest fight. Sending hugs xx
@cathie2 are you feeling stronger? I’d say that if the kids are still there drag it out a bit longer and get them cooking and cleaning 
Yesterday was the first time I looked at the chemo bags and felt sick at the sight of them, I don’t want this shit in my body anymore but both my babies made me cry on Christmas Day and that’s what it’s all about. Freddie had dictated a card to Tilly from Japan with pictures of us and Tilly made me a book on Canva about us x and Hubbie made me giggle bc he bought me the whole Aveeno range I think it’s been a tough one because emotions are sky high at Christmas and everyone is out there celebrating. Next year will be a blinder!!!
@poptart how are you? Hope the drugs are working and you’ve turned a corner?? Thinking of you x @anim4l how are you feeling?
Has anyone got any plans tonight apart from pyjamas, eyebrow painting, huffing, puffing, saying “for fuck’s sake” a lot, TV and rubbing cream into various body parts? Can I just mention weeing with no pubes? Oh my god, who knew? I was weighed at chemo yesterday and I’ve put on 5kg, holy moly, well that’s the absolute least of my worries and I’ve let that battle go, that too shall pass.
Sending love to everyone,
Rachel xxx