Thankyou all. Thanks @buggeringon, Today was a better day. Wore a wig to work for the first time and felt more like me again. Me and my partner managed to get out to a nice restaurant for a date night at the weekend too. He scoped the place out first and asked for a secluded spot with no foot fall and no one sat around us 
it was lovely. And tonight I’ve had mummy daughter time. I’m going to fight this with everything I have.
@anim4l thats fantastic news Your list sounds amazing. I’m going to be doing similar. Lots of holidays and theaters. I want to try and go to Edinburgh for a weekend If possible on one of my good weeks. I love Scotland. Then Lapland next Christmas, and the Nordic countries. I saw a lady on tiktok who has done the same with making her own version and shes just had her last round, her nails have done well from what I can see. A few breaks but otherwise ok. Im going to be getting some nail strengthener and dark nail polish. Ive been using vaseline so far. Need to use more moisturiser tho, especailly because this week Ive opend so many little boxes of paint at work. Re stocking, and my fingers went so dry.
@dizzy3 and for you too so glad for you. And glad your symptoms were better this time round. I’m hoping the majority of mine are down to me not eating properly due to nausea. So going to try my sickness meds properly everyday twice a day. Salt water rinses and mouth washes to try and tackle the horrid taste in my mouth. This round will be better, fingers crossed.
@bellbert thankyou, so sorry your having a horrid time too. I’m confused with these oncologists. Some people seem to be having regular meetings and talks with theres and my next appointment with mine is in January. And I only met her for a split second at my first meeting because she wanted to check my lump as I said it had grown, otherwise I was with one of her doctors. Are you feeling any better about your next cycle now ?
@frunca happy half way mark. I feel like I could have written what you did. Thats how my weeks have gone too, mine was more of a ramble tho aha. Good news on the cold cap too I didnt cold cap and have fluff on my head now. I’m going to shave it all off I think properly.
@story1 so sorry this round has been harsh on you. I agree with the couch days. Just want to be up and about. Couch days feel like the longest days aswell. And Thankyou. The down days are bad, and when I try to voice them to people around me they just tell me to stop and I cant think like that. And I know I should try and snap myself out of it but sometimes I just want them to let me get it out, to have a proper chat and a big cuddle. Glad you had a lovely day with your daughter. Hope the fitting goes well.
Heres a date night photo of me In my happy place aha I’ve decided if me and my partner ever get married (been together over 11 years now) I’m wearing this wig because I feel like an elf 
Xxxx