I am two days off finding out my results. I am so scared and emotional. It has been a long six weeks since discovering my lump to here. It is still there. I have been here before but this lump is different . I attended breast imaging 2 weeks ago. I had 6 vacum biopsies and a marker fitted. So I have convinced myself it is bc. I am so teary and emotional. I have found this forum so helpful.
Hiya,
This is a really tough time and even those of us who are diagnosed with bc will agree that the not knowing is just about the worst thing to cope with.
6 weeks is a long time to be left wondering but you will have answers now and whatever happens we will be here to help ? Xx
Sending you a virtual hug Mainowl. Waiting is just hell, and the mind plays cruel tricks - for me, walking and walking was always the way I tried to cope when ‘waiting’ - because the walking would make me physically tired. To the park, on a bus to somewhere different and walking, a book in a coffee shop to take me somewhere else - and back here when you need people who understand. Wishing you the best outcome.
Thank you Paulus. I have thrown myself into work. Being a teacher abd being off has been the worse time for me so I have concentrated on setting up my new classroom, clearing out loads of years of rubbish from my office and moving another room. I will consider the walking thanks for the advice.
Was it today you were getting your results? Hope you’re OK
Hi Judith2reid Yes it was today, thank you for caring. Well no surprise it was bc. I knew it was as it was so different from the other lumps I had had. Stage 3 in my milk ducts and lymph nodes. I cried but then was relieved. Ct and Mri and awaiting for a hera? to return. 5th Sept is the plan day. The team at the hosp were fabulous. Telling my parents and my 13 year old son was the hardest. How are you doing? I’m so glad I found you guys i have gained such a lot from this forum.mx
Hi Mainowl. I’m do sorry to hear your news. However much you prepare it must be a massive shock when it’s real. I get my results next Thurs and although the consultant seemed fairly sure it’s bc I can’t help thinking it’s going to hit me like a bus. I just need to know so I have something to plan (i’m a terrible control freak!) It sounds like you have a great hospital team. 5 Sept must feel like another eternity to wait but at least you’ve an idea where you’re going now and your family know and can support you. You’re in my thoughts x
Dear Jobey68 I asked the hospital for advice on telling my son they said just be honest and gave me some great stuff. Like you say honesty is best. He asked would I die I said no one had talked about that at the hospital. He then said Dominoes for tea would make him feel better. Lol
I too am a control freak.I even took some notes ha ha. I read so much on here that was helpful. I wanted to be in charge when told. So i had read about different types of cancers, what happens after diagnoses, i had read about diifferent stages. I knew from reading other people’s posts a ct and mri might be needed. So when they told me everything I had heard those words and that information which helped. The funny think was I was relieved because I now was dealing with a known. I did cry and then regain myself. I must say before i went in I was petrified, shaking, felt so sick. Telling my parents and my son was the hardest. I have text friends asked for no sympathy. You will be fine . Do you have someone to go with you. Plus take a bag because if you get a diagnosis and you leave the waiting area you are not carrying you brand new shiny breast cancel folder.
I’ve told friends and close colleagues because I knew I wasn’t myself and I needed them to cut me a bit of slack. They and my partner have been brilliant and he has come with me to all my appts. I haven’t told family though because I didn’t want them to worry and I’m dreading those conversations. For me there’s a fine line between being prepared for what might happen, and scaring myself witless about stuff that might happen but equally might not. I’ve stopped looking on the forum at all the side effects because it was upsetting me too much. Great advice re the bag for the shiny new folder!
You are brave Paulus. So where are you up to on this journey?