A new line of enquiry has help me to focus

Today, as I await an appointment still, I went and did something positive to sort out my mental health so that I can think clearly. 

 

I have anti-depressants and have been signed of work until January and this has given me time today to do some things just for me. Well, paying bills, sorting out house paper work, doing the house stuff at a normal pace. 

 

I have also ignored advice about searching the internet and decided to research benign breast conditions. I have now mentally diagnosed myself with fibro cystic blah which is non-cancerous. I can now just live my life and wait for the appointments to come through, go to the appointments with a postive mind and if the worst happens I can deal with it. I know I can.

 

I have met some great people on here and heard some amazing stories. I don’t even care if I have cancer now because I know so many of you out there have it right now and are dealing with it and moreover, helping people like me who are panicking for problably nothing. 

 

I raise a glass to being in the 80% of those with micro calcs who are not DCIS or otherwise and a glass to those who are not so fortunate but who are the most fantasitc people I have every read about. 

 

Sending love everywhere. 

I think that under the circumstances, you’re probably doing the right thing. We need to focus on positives (there’s that word again) and not the ‘might be’ things. 

 

Wishing you all the best and hoping your self diagnosis is close to the truth.

 

Big hugs

poemsgalore xx

Fingers crossed you get the answers, so you can move on. I get my results to my hadfields operation on monday too. Hoping for answers.

Take care xx