Kimbers, you called Tamoxifen “loopy pills”. So if you start out loopy before taking them (guilty as charged) then surely Tam would have to be “even loopier pills”?
And is Gail Porter better than the cross cat? I think she looks fab, don’t you?
oh ChoccieMuffin…I get it…can be dense at times…am trying to find out if there is a stomach bug going around locally, as I have felt sick (and actually sick) these last 2-3 days and up all night last night with awful cramps and bad poo’s, god I hope it isn’t yet another Tamox’ side effect…feeling very rough and low this morning…Gail Porter…who’s that??? love your pic…pretty girl! x x ah wait a minute…that’s Gail Porter…still don’t know of her??? Take care…
Hi Kimbers,
I have been on Tamoxifen for 6 months now. Just a few weeks ago I posted on another site (anyone seriously considering giving up Tamoxifen). I had a constant thrush infection - which has now been successfully dealt with - and because my hormones were all over the place I could be really down some days.
However, just over the last two weeks I have been feeling great again. It was a bit like a fog lifting.
Like you I had Grade 2 no lymph node inv. and 15 sessions of rads and thought remove the tumour have the rads and bingo all done!!
I n my case the side effects from the Tamoxifen seem to have subsided, maybe just my body getting used to the drug. Trust me there is light at the end of the tunnel.
Tina
x
By the way choccie love the avatar. Took a while for me to realise it was Gail Porter.
Tina
x
Hi Kimbers - another Tyke here; currently about to move (in middle of chemo - ouch) 20 miles up the road to York.
You said, “wasn’t Kent termed ‘the garden of England’ and didn’t Yorkshire nick that of you chaps”.
Not heard that one of Tykeland. I know it’s ‘God’s Own County’ and ‘The Broad Acres’. I’m married to a Kentish Man and once he discovered The Broad Acres at uni, he said he’d never go back to Kent - and apart from driving down the A2 to get to the chunnel, he hasn’t! As a typical Kent boy, he did once spend a summer school holiday hop picking. Made me laugh.
Hope you are now feeling a bit more positive. I know that it’s really hard to do so at times; I’m really up and down.
hiKimbers
this is a very difficult time-and I know the 4am in the morning feeling when the world goes black . I console myself with a very neat house which is done before 6 [bar hoovering as the hubby and kids wouldnt appreciate it].Remember that survival rates have increased fantastically and there isnt a reason why you shouldnt live to an old age . I now celebrate birthdays more as I think each milestone is precious and hubby and I throwing a big shindig for 25th anniversary next year [nice to make forward plans like I used to do instaed of day by day]
if the worst happens to me I will not have wasted my time by thinking it will happen -I will face it as it hits me in the face -nothing will change that and we are looking after ourselves as best as we can try to think you are now in the safety loop and you will now be monitored closely - keep your spirits up and try to keep positive,recognise yourself when this isnt possible and allow yourself to feel what you have to and talk to others -that is what has helped me. remember you are not alone and big hugs from me x
daisyleaf-I am in newcastle and would love to meet up with anyone who is local ?x.
Hi Kimbers
You’re definitely not alone!!
I live in quite a rural area which is beautiful but I felt terribly cut off and isolated when I was having treatment. Prior to that I’d been working freelance - travelling up to London regularly and elsewhere in the country. All of sudden it felt as though everything stopped.
Things gradually improve and all I can say is that its normal to have days when you feel down or angry or completely fed up.
As you can see, you can get lots of support on this forum and the helpline is wonderful! Elinda x
Hello Tinytina, Nija, Enaid46 and Elinda 45, thankyou so much for your time, and words…generally I am being positive, but things keep battering me down, a friend of ours has been in a bike crash and his life hangs in the balance, my shower has broken (boy do I so need that at the minute), work pressures/worries because my partner has to do everything and if he asks me to do one easy little task I get confused and panicky…and I seriously just want to run away…I am being such a wimp, AND I AM NOT LIKE THIS, THIS IS NOT ME…maybe it is time to stop being so stubborn and ask the docs for anti-depressants, (they want me to take them, but I keep saying no)…my chap is back today, haven’t seen him for a week, half of me can’t wait to see him, the other half thinks all he is going to do is moan about work pressures and wind me up, so I may as well be alone…tut, going to chill out with something mundance on the TV…start rads tomorrow…sorry girls, should give myself a slap…xxx
Don’t apologise, Kimbers.
Sorry to hear about your friend, hope he improves. It all seems to come down on you at once.
I understand what you are saying when you say THIS IS NOT LIKE ME- THIS IS NOT ME. My comment for weeks was that I WANT TO BE THE PERSON I WAS, NOT THE PERSON I’VE BECOME.
A glass of wine might be nice while you watch some tv.
Good luck to-morrow.
Tina
x
Tiny - turn that round right now!
***I am the person I have always been, and I can become the person I have always wanted to be***
Now, everyone repeat after me:
***I am the person I have always been, and I can become the person I have always wanted to be***
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***I am the person I have always been, and I can become the person I have always wanted to be***
Oh Ninja -you have made my day! Sometimes just need someone to nudge me back into a more positive approach - and sometimes think I’m a better person and have better life in some ways now…
Hope this has helped other too - lovely to get this support
thanks so much
thank you ninja - wise words
Can you tell that I had my first hypnotherapy sesh today?
Hi Ninja,
You made me laugh too. Im off to do the dusting and repeat your mantra to myself.
It’s wonderful that we can support each other and put a different perspective on things.
Frances-you are soooo right. Your comment on being a better person etc. gave me food for thought and actually I think I am a better person in some ways and the little tweaks I have made to my lifestyle have improved my life.
Tina
x
Ninja - I love that mantra. I felt such identity loss after my diagnosis and I keep thinking one day I’ll be more like me.
BUT you’re right, I am me that’s not changed, it’s only my circumstances. I shall repeat your mantra!
Thank you, elinda x
Well Ninja - all I can say is please have another hypnotherapy session and share your thoughts with us - love the postive energy that’s coming through to me! Hope it’s continued for you today.
thanks Guys…went to see my friend, he is in the same hospital as where I am being zapped, so I can go see him every work day which is good. Love that mantra Ninja, thank you, didnt have a glass of wine, don’t drink at home, (rarely), but actually bought two bottles of white…so yeah…there’s a thought…first zap went fine…hope all you lovely ladies are on top…feeling a bit better today…Kimbers x
Elinda45:
“Ninja - I love that mantra. I felt such identity loss after my diagnosis and I keep thinking one day I’ll be more like me.”
You ARE like you, Sweetie - who else can you be? Things are just getting in the way a bit right now. Keep on being you.
Hi I am nearly two years on from diagnosis and it almost feels like it never happened. I had grade 2, lumpectomy, no lymph involvement and then 15 rads. Now on Arimadex. Do get down days from the hormone meds. I live alone but do have great people in my life who were very supportive at the time. This site really helped me so much and it was (and still can be) a great place to let off steam, there will always be someone here who knows exactly how you feel.
I try to stay positive about the future but there are times it comes back to bite me. Anyway things will definitely get better and you are entitled to feel the way you do, its pretty huge to hear you have this horrible disease.
Laurasue.
Ps My surname is Kimber!
Hi ladies, just reading through all your posts and rather selfishly am glad I found all of your postings as I’m having a “down day” today.
I used to have such a nice life, I met my husband at 15, married at 22 and have one daughter who will be 19 this Sunday. I am 50 years old. On the 9th February my lovely husband died very suddenly of a heart attack (aged 53) and three weeks later I was diagnosed with breast cancer, stage 2 and 3mm in size. Have had my surgery, no spread to the lymph nodes and finish my radiotherapy tomorrow at the QE in Birmingham.
I have been taking Tamoxifen for 6 weeks, have had night sweats and generally feel tired but still trying to go to work. I am on anti depressants but just can’t get my head round all that has happened to me since February and feeling really low. Your posts have made me realise I am not on my own and we are all dealing with different emotions and the effects of treatment/medication.
Big hugs to you all luv Karen (eddyclan)x