I was just wondering if I’m living in a dream and should come back to earth?
I was diagnosed about 2 weeks ago, not much yet known, only that I’m facing single/double mastectomy, the tumor is 100% estrogen positive, 60% progesteron positive, Her2 not known yet, the genetical test is on the way. I’m going to have chemo, radio, and hormonal treatment. I’m young and the tumor is agressive (grade 3). I’m super terrified of the upcoming surgery and treatment. But at the same time I’m confident that it all gonna be alright, that I’ll get over it and overcome it and be healthy again cancer free. Am I fooling myself? I do not know my prognosis yet, but somehow I’m sure I’m going to be fine. Am I in denial? Or is it a stage and my emotional state will get worse? Did/do you feel something similar?
Hi Julia can only say that you should carry on with your beliefs. I think we all go through this in different ways and your positive thoughts are certainly good. I have to wait until 20th feb for my results and part of me says will not be too bad, but then the other part says, who are You kidding. I believe this is part of the waiting game, had surgery on 27th jan. We all have so much going on in our heads, but whatever appears we will deal with it. This forum is exceptional, we are all so special. Carry on with your thoughts, you are not wrong lol xxxxxxx
Hi ladies, I think it is great to be positive i think it is the only way … all of us will have down days, I know I have (usually after i have had a tough appointment or a long day). Most of the time it can feel like a dream but then also that is quite good to get through the dark moments. I must admit I did originally find it quite difficult at diagnosis stage before my masectomy surgery to lay in bed at night in those quiet moments, but once I had the op it sort of in a strange way the dark moments got less. You have to ensure that you do your exercises and sleep and rest, I also got prescribed Citaloprim to help me. Now I am waiting to start treatment 6 sessions of FEC, then radiotherapy and Herceptn and also taking part of a trial as HER2 + so that will be ongoing. I think it is best to just go with your emotions dont be hard on yourself. xxx
Good for you. They know SO much about breast cancer these days and more and more women are being cured. Some doctors don’t use the word but many do now - there’s a reason for that! Go with the flow and let them do their thing and I am sure everything will turn out well. You’re on your way now; you won’t believe how quickly it goes. Enjoy the pampering you’ll get and take it easy.
Remember, this is just a chapter in your book, not the whole story!!
Hi Carmen, Tinkerbell, and Pianist! Thanks so much for your responses. Yes, it may be a seesaw sometimes, like Saturday evening turned out to be very bad emotionally, but then when I try to turn my brain on, I calm down and serousely think it’s all gonna be fine. I guess it’s just one day at a time. And yes, probably it’s a very good idea to excercise. I somehow strangely believe that this whole experience is given to us because we are strong, and strong people tend to have heavier problems. And this all horrible experience will definitely change us for the best. Yes, it takes a lot, but eventually will give a lot too. Perhaps too much philosophy, sorry
You have to try and keep positive us girls have to get through it for everyone else around us. Sometimes laying in bed in the dark trying to get to sleep can be the worst times of all, i did receive advice from my BCN to perhaps try some herbal sleeping tablets - which has really helped just to relax me before i go off to sleep. Keep strong xx
Hi tink - what were the herbal pills u tried? I’m struggling to drop off And still wake regularly at 3 or 4 am - this is setting me back in terms of recovery and getting back to work but I am reluctant to try prescribed medicine (maybe stupidly…)
Hi girls the herbal tabs I take are from tesco cheap and cheerful Drs have said ok to have usually take about hour before bed so at least I go off and not lying there thinking see what u think ??
I’m going to use the paxman cap next week and been told to bring conditioner in to cover head anyone else used this ? Xx
