I am supposed to be working at my PC just now but can think of nothing else but my trip to the Breast Clinic on Friday. I have been trying very hard to tell myself there’s no point worrying til I know if there’s anything there to worry about but I am finding it very hard to think about anything else.
I am 37 and found a lump on New Year’s eve and went to my Gp who was very reassuring and said it didnt feel malignant but referred me to the clinic anyway as it was a new lump for me. Initially she couldn’t find it til I showed her - to me it feels about 2cm, hard and doesnt move and its just under the nipple. I’ve no other changes. I saw the Gp lst wednesday and have a clinic appointment this friday. I was pleased to be referred but have felt in an almost constant state of tension and that I could cry at any time since I saw her. My husband is very reassuring and is coming with me to the appointment - I find myself welling up at the thought of the worst for him. I have two toddlers and am finding it very hard to look at them without again welling up. I was hopeless at work last week - distracted. I am working from home today and tomorrow and only have to go in on Thursday morning. I should be typing on this computer with work related stuff but figured I should stop and join this forum instead. I have had a good cry while Ive written this. I feel very lonely as I cant really speak to friends and family about it - I dont know if there’s even anything to worry about.
I wish I knew what was going to happen when I get there, My appointment is in Leeds. Do you see the Dr first and then have the ultrasound/mammogram? Might the dr send me packing without any investigations? Thats my worst scenario as I want to know for sure what it is. The only information I got in the letter was that I’d need to wear a dressing gown and I could take my own!
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HI, I go to my appointment on Wednesday in Rotherham and feel exactly the same as you. I have two daughters teenagers. I havent even received a letter, I had to ring the Doctors to chase up the appointment and then the hospital to see if there is anything I should know before I go.
My doctor said the same, but I still cant help worrying and am really scared, as I am still getting over the death of my Mum last September from Lung Cancer. I keep saying surely this cant be happening again so soon, but I also feel I am sure to be one of the unlucky ones.
When I got my appointment I had a mammogram and then met the doctor, he asked some questions and did an ultrasound. It’s possible that you may also have a needle biopsy done at the same time. I’m sure they won’t just send you home without doing some tests.
I know it’s easy said, but try not to worry. Most lumps and bumps are benign. Your brain goes into overdrive and will always try and find the worst case scenario. Take everything one day at a time.
I hope this helps. I felt very much the same as you do though my child is an adult. On the first appointment the nurse gave me a form to fill in, I was then taken into another room and asked to change into a gown which was provided by them.
The consultant then checked by breasts and told me I would have a mammogram and an ultrasound.
I was given my bad news after all the checks been done on the same day though at that point they couldn’t tell if the tumour was benign or cancerous. I had to have a biopsy before I was given my bad news.
It’s very difficult to take it all in, but I hope your news is good.
I know exactly what you mean about thinking the worst. I have my appointment for Wednesday morning and I’m secretly crapping it! My DH can’t get the time off work but fortuntatley my best friend is off work that day so is coming with my (my Mum offered but I need someone to watch my little boy so she’ll stay home and do that for me). It’s hard not to get ahead of yourself but I think the best thing is just to try and keep busy and not dwell on what you don’t know. Friday will be here before you know it hun!! Just keep focused on your every day stuff till then.
May I also add, I was originally referred by my GP as I found a lump.
The consultant at the Hospital said the lump was nothing to worry about but they would still do all the checks - which in my case I was very grateful for as they found grade 2 DCIS in the same breast but on the other side of the breast to where the lump was.
So I can’t see them sending you home without doing the required tests.
Hi, the first time i was referred to the clinic i had to fill forms out first about history, bra size how many children you have if you breastfeed etc, i was then taken to a room by a nurse and had to put on a very attractive gown, well it was more of a shawl, over the shoulder thing like my nanna use to wear, [which made me and my husband relax as i looked so silly], the doc then examined the lump said he thought it was nothing but sent me for an ultra sound to make sure, i then got the all clear but had to have the lump removed due to the size of it.
Im hoping for the same procedure when i go again on wednesday, i might see you there tracey m, am at rotherham on wednesday evening
Hello.
I went at end of October to the Spire in Leeds and they did a mammogram, an untrascan and a core neede biopsy. I was told it was classed as C3 which is probably benign. My consultant wanted to remove it anyway which was fine by me. That was a Wed and the results came back from the biopsy as still C3 on the Sat and lump removed on the Monday under local. Results from the lump showed it was ILC and I got those on the Wednesday. I hope this is of help and oddly enough for the lady in Rotherham I work there so if either of you need a chat; just ask as I know what you’re going through.
Rgds,
Suzi
I am so grateful for your messages. I have had a better day today. Both my toddlers have been off colour with coughs/temps so I’ve been keeping busy. I am trying to keep busy. And not watch Coronation Stree. Everywhere I look, Sally Webster is either on the TV or on the front page of the telley mags. I have not been sleeping well the past week and am shattered. My husband has been fantastic and reassuring but it has meant so much to hear from other women who are/have been in the same boat. Fingers crossed, I guess.
Much love and thanks so much again - you have no idea how much your messages meant (except I know you DO know because you’ve been there!) x x x