I had surgery in November and am starting rads 2nd Jan so accept that I’m waiting for some action, again!
At first I rewarded myself with food for getting through stuff and now I’m bingeing to the point of feeling bloated all the time and can’t stop. I’ve got a pretty addictive personality and gave up booze and fags years ago because I was geting them “too much” now I’m doing the same with food!
I feel out of control in all aspects of my life (work, relationship, finances) and wonder if this is just the way I feel at the moment, trying to"fix" myself maybe?
I feel rubbish so eat then feel even more rubbishey because I’ve pigged out on something like chocolate! Carrot sticks just don’t DO IT for me!
As a PS to this, I’ve always fought my weight and am panicking about taking medication because I’ll get even bigger!
Hi there –
I comfort eat too and have put on lots of weight being on Tamoxifen and Zoladex, which makes me depressed so I eat more…
My doctor made me an appointment to see a dietician, but I cancelled cos I know what I have to do. Just need the motivation or whatever to do it!
No help to you, but wanted to let you know that I totally understand where you’re coming from 
love,
Jacki
Hi Camborne
I thought you may find our new ‘Diet and exercise’ DVD useful at the moment, it contains lots on information about healthy eating and ideas for exercise which may be of interest to you, you can order a copy via our helpline on 0808 800 6000 or via the following link:
breastcancercare.org.uk/content.php?page_id=7650
Our helpline is staffed by specialist breast care nurses and people who have had experience of breast cancer themselves, they can offer a wealth of information and support to you and you are very welcome to call if you feel that this would be helpful at the moment. The lines open 9am-5pm and Sat 9am-2pm.
Best wishes
Lucy
Hi there ladies,
Bunnymum, you sound just like me! I know this site would be good for me, so very many thanks for letting me know I’m not alone. This is ALL head stuff, I know exactly what you mean about the motivation. I was never very body confident and have always felt more “acceptable” when slimmer (especially to my partner but that’s another HUGE issue and we haven’t got that many gigabites for that one) and now I’ve got hrooible scars and half a boob! At least I’m alive tomoan tho’ eh?
I’m off out ot lunch today with some lovely supportive friends and yet I’m sitting here not wanting to get ready because I haven’t seen some of them for ages and they can’t help but notice how much I’ve piled on. Charity shop voluminous clothes because I’m on benefits and totally out of control. This stuff really stinks sometimes. Sorry I know it will pass but athe moment life feels tough and I’m not tough! This is all me, me, me but that’s how I feeel right now. Much love to you, xxx
Lucy, thanks for your info, can I play a dvd on my computer because I don’t have a player with my TV? thanks,
Hi Camborne,
I have always been an extremely disciplined person, but my consumption of chocolate really went up during chemo and treatment. It does get better as the breast cancer worries fade into the background.
It sounds at the moment like you’re digging yourself into a bit of a hole, though, if you eat because of stress and then get stressed about how much you are eating. Perhaps starting some short walks would help because that has been shown to help breast cancer patients feel better, which might help you eat less, and also burns calories. A half an hour walk four days a week during radiotherapy has also been shown to reduce fatigue.
Good on you for quitting smoking, which is known as one of the hardest things to do. If you could beat that, you can probably beat anything.
Hi Camborne and Jacki
I totally understand where you are coming from. I get this odd feeling inside me that kind of needs to be filled and I then comfort eat - it’s weird the feeling. I’m having counselling anyway and I mentioned this to my counsellor yesterday at the end of my session and she said we’ll “explore it” next time so that should be interesting. I know I’ve put on weight and am scared to weigh myself as my jeans feel a lot tighter than they did - I’m tempted to get on the scales but then know that if it’s really bad I’ll be even more depressed. It’s so unfair that our looks go to pot as well as having this awful disease to deal with!
Rebz x
Hi All, Have just returned from my lunch with friends who very carefully admired my new hairdo and pink shirt, bless ‘em!
Many thanks for the advice of anti fatigue walking and calorie burn Christine and yes I did beat the cigs which means I CAN dig myself out of this hole, thanks for reminding me.
RebZ, DO NOT weigh yourself, it’ll give you something to feel guilty for or beat yourself up about. Take advice from Christine and walk, get some fresh air if you can. I treated myself to some magic knickers, what a laugh geting them on. They certainly held it all in though, not sure I’d want to be run down by a bus in them tho’!
We just have to keep keeping on and fight this darn stuff, best wishes, Kym,
Hello Kym
Congrats on giving up the cigs - that is a really good thing. I’ll take your advice and won’t weigh myself as I know it’ll depress me. I did go for a long walk today and I need to do it everyday to get the benefit. Anyway I’m sitting here typing this and sucking on my favourite sweets from M&S - sherbert fruits - that ssays it all!
I’ve got a pair of those lovely magic knickers somewhere but don’t think will resort to that just now.
Now what can I eat next? LOL
Rebz