Started the day with waking up and looking out of the bedroom window to find rain and wind outside (wind also inside but that is a different topic) closed curtains and went downstairs and made two toasted crumpets with butter and went back to bed. Got up and then made sandwich of primula cheese spread, then one of peanut butter. Then had about 15 almonds. Then half a pizza. Then 3 cans of cider. Now craving mashed potato or a huge oven baked potato with loads of butter on the crisp skin (with lots of pepper) - oh an I also had a slice of blackcurrant cheese cake and about 3 jaffa cake bars ( and I NEVER eat sweet things)
At this rate I am going to end up the size of a house, but everything I have read has said that you shouldn’t try and diet whilst going through chemotherapy. I feel bad enough as it is with the lack of hair dealing with the every increasing tightness of clothing isn’t helping either!
It was sweet things that got to me too, one morning I actually made some blueberry muffins for breakfast, no mean feat 5 days into TAX. I have to have a gluten free diet so have to use special flour and the only blueberries I had were frozen in my mixed fruit bag, so I picked them out! Didn’t have enough to make a whole batch and so chopped up chocolate (dark & dairy free of course) and made half and half. Stuffed 2 with a cup of fresh coffee and real milk (what a hypocrite) and had these for my breakfast for the rest of the week.
I ate things i never would eat before i had a kentucky, a mcdonalds, pizza. They are so awful and im pleased to say many months on from chemo my healthy eating has returned.
my chemo week dialy consists of toast and marmalade, ham baguettes and ready salted crisps…lots of ready salted crisps! (in the evening i’ll have various proper dinners but that’sonly 'cos my lovely OH cooks them for me - i’d be happy with more crisps!)
I try to eat better during 2 and 3 but i’m very much a fan of the ‘sod it’ attitude and if I want something, i’ll have it! we all have enough to worry about right now without food having to become another issue!
Today I had juiced apples, carrots and a lemon for breakfast, melon as a mid-morning snack and butternut squash soup and one piece of wholemeal toast for lunch. Without butter.
But felt sick with hunger so have just eaten a whole packet of chocolate biscuits to make up for it.
Slightly better day today - started with “fruit and fibre” for breakfast then jacket potato with prawns and salad. Had a small snack of a cream cracker with cheese on and cherry tomatoes. Seem to have my taste buds back to normal so might chance a drink of cider tonight. Does fermented apple juice count towards your five a day??
Had a bit better day today ate loads of fruit and veg .No cakes or buns and made a shep pie for tea(very lean mince as always )which went down very well .Only thing was felt so much like my old self after being so worn out last week that i sent hubby to shop for a bottle of rose to see if i could taste it or not(gave it up as it burns my mouth and tastes like acid) unfortunately it went down well and we both enjoyed doing what we used to do and sitting talking and sharing a bottle of wine.
Have felt guilty ever since though have gone from being diag and saying i will never drink again and giving it totally up for a while to having the odd night where i do drink xx
only my personal opinion, but I wouldn’t worry about the odd drink. I don’t plan to. Sounds like you had a lovely evening with your hubby and that’s far more important.
By the way, I ate rubbish whilst on chemo-cans and cand of full fat coke and loads of stodgy carbs, especially caramel doughnuts. My diet is much better now 2 months after chemo finished but I still need to ditch my ‘red bull’ habit. I would say to any lady having chemo, eat whatever you want that helps you get through it and worry about it after. I too did the no dairy diet in the early days after diagnosis and lost loads of weight very quickly but I think I did this because I was sovulnerable and was trying tofind a way in which I could help myself. Needless to say,it didn’tlast once I came to terms with my prognosis and I became to understand more about BC.
Off to eat brekkie-special K with raspberries, strawberries and blueberries (diet is getting better1)
Sun shining, breakfast fruit and fibre, melon and organic St Clement’s yoghurt, very good and healthy followed an hour later by two white bread rolls thick with butter and bacon, fabulous!!
Now craving cheese with apricots and Ryvita, and I don’t eat cheese.
I have gone off chocolate though .
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