Hi Everyone
Well where shall I start …
Went to Guildford today and got there 15 mins early, so decided to pop in and see Kay. I have to say, she did look quite well, although had a few tubes flying around. She is obviously gutted and devastated about the operation, and even though the Professor had warned her it was a possibility, she said to be so close to having it done successfully, and at the last hurdle for it all to go wrong, was such a devastating blow and emotionally hard too. I told her that you all sent your love and were thinking about her too. Not sure when she will be out, as she has to be up and about and able to climb stairs, and so far she has only been out of bed once. I was going to go back and see her after my visit to the Prof, as only had 10mins with her but …
I am not too happy tonight, so not very chatty, as went to see Liver Specialist today, and my liver not operable. He showed me my scans from July, and there were numerous lesions on right side of liver and then what looked like one on left, but right near main blood artery, so no good. If left had been clear then could have maybe chopped off the right lobe. But for some reason he did not receive the latest scans from December, so gonna get them sent to him and he is going to have a look and write to me with the results. So feeling sory for myself and depressed, so off to drown my sorrows in a glass or two of wine. Am absolutely gutted really, one about seeing all the lesions there, as thought I only had 2, and also that it is not operable, although I have no doubt that I would probably have ended up in the same boat as Kay. So now gotta pick myself up and start again. Although the Professor did say he had a patient that was comparable to me, and is now 8 years down the line … so heres hoping …
Kay is looking for another meet and lots of hugs when she is fully recovered, so we shall get something sorted when she is back on line.
Nigel, so sorry to hear about your wife. I have to say that waiting 3 months is awful and i for one would not accept it. I finishd chemo on 21 Nov (had 3 FEC and 3 Tax), and was told that I would not get Herceptin til new year. So I wrote my onc a letter and told him that I could not go through christmas and new year on no treatment and I started herceptin on 20 december. I know that everyone’s situation is different though, but leaving it 3 months to see if the tumour grows sounds absurd to me. I hope that your wife is coping as well as she can. It is hard but these forums are so amazing and the support is brilliant. I am 39, was dx in July last year with bc and liver mets. I have 2 children one is 4 and the other is 1. They will keep both of you going I promise and give you so much to fight for. My two don’t give me a moments peace, so I have no time to dwell on things and they make me laugh and smile and just make all the treatment worthwhile.
Anyway am rambling now, so off to drink my wine.
I hope that everyone is OK tonight, and I will catchup with you all over the weekend.
Lots of Love
Dawn
xx