Morning
Sorry to hear you aren’t too good today.
I have been for line care and bloods this morning. I expect that tomorrow morning, round about 11:30 I will get a call from the hospital to tell me that my wbc is very low, to be careful, take my temperature and come in early on Monday when my next chemo is due, to have more bloods taken to see if the levels have gone up! I could write the script. Oh well, I will just have to eat dark chocolate this weekend!
Take care xx
Thanks @bigpickle , oh I’ll be joining you with the dark chocolate, not that i need a reason but we got eachother in this group right? Thinking of you tomorrow, I’ll be having my treatment at that time… 
you don’t get that call 
Had a massive meltdown, but feeling better now that I’ve expressed my feelings, crying doesn’t solve anything but sure helps to feel less of a burden xx
Wishing a good day, take care everyone 
That definitely made me giggle, thank you ever so much 
Update
Within 5 minutes of my previous post, I got the call from the hospital. WBC very low, yes says I this was expected, been the same previous 2 cycles, etc etc. Only this time, I had to go back up to have a filgrastim injection! Still going to eat dark chocolate though!!
Darn it, really sorry to hear that @bigpickle, a huge hug and yep definitely dark chocolate on the menu for sure, i love the way you think 
Did they say why the change? And that’s for tomorrow?
Sending hugs xx
Nope, only because it’s the third time it’s happened. Chemo is next Monday.
Just not sleeping at all. Not sure if it the dreaded filgrastim injections but have had aching diaphragm most nights since last chemo.
I had a melt down too this morning, just really overwhelmed, had a sob, probably offended everyone in the house before they went to work.
I’m wondering if dark chocolate could solve some of my problems. Seems silly not to try.
Food still tastes awful though and constant chemo smell when I tilt my head is awful 
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Last injection for this cycle tomorrow yay.
Sorry to hear some of you aren’t great either.
Hugs to all
@songbird1. I think that is eactly the word, overwhelming. It all seems too much. I had to go to the hospital to pick up a different anti nausea drug (which is actually an anti psychotic med 
). Been better today but exhausted now. I think back to February and think how well I felt then! Suppose it’s the cumulative effect but definitely feel. more ill now, although oddly I look quite well (if you ignore the hair situation!). So many of you have had extra problems though too that it feels almost normal! Take care everyone 
Agree food tastes awful. Find myself eating lots of bread and crackers. Can’t even drink water or tea.
I couldn’t drink tea after my first round of EC. I could on the second. Tasted flipping awful.
Hi all
Feeling like we are all going through similar feelings and emotions, Iv had several melt downs today, hair loss prob the biggest thing, it’s My partners birthday and trying to look pretty is not happening! I feel so rough from Chemo on Monday and these filgrastim injections have caused me so much pain I’m on the oramorph!
I have to say that docetaxal has quite a bad reputation it is not nice but I would rather be on it and it doing its job!
Has anyone got any midway scans booked?
Iv got an ultrasound on Monday but I’m not confident about having it as the one I had to begin with didn’t show the tumours true size, it was much bigger when they did the mri! I don’t want them thinking it’s shrunk more than it has!
I have cravings for all types of food but nothing tastes good, my teeth feel tight and like razors and my tongue is tingly!
It’s all such a worry isn’t it 
Sending hugs to all xxxx
I could do with some antipsychotic drugs!! It’s heartbreaking to see everyone struggling. Those glimmer days are all the better though xx
I’m going to keep reminding myself, the reason I feel so rubbish is because docetaxil is doing it job. It doesn’t make me feel better but it gives me perspective.
It’s tough at celebration times your partner will just want you well but we are hard on ourselves. Others just have to be supportive and grateful when we are upright for a little while - we’ll get there and our beauty comes from within - inhale tranquility exhale toxins 
Gosh, just looked on and everyone is reaching for the chocolate and the drugs. It’s not even Friday. Hope everyone is feeling better now. I’m 7 days after EC 3 and starting to feel better, but I’m so tired. What I wouldn’t give to just sleep a full night. My eldest is in full on gcse revision panic and I’ve been trying to help her, but I just want to crawl under the duvet.
After reading your messages above, I have decided to just have the flu and covid together next week and hope I don’t regret it! @mz45 … If it does make my temperature go high, will I still have to ring red card though? I don’t want another night in hospital! I’ll have to have them in my thigh as I can’t have needles in arm on either ALND side or in picc side. X
Hope everyone sleeps well and feels better tomorrow. X
@bluesatsuma i decided to see if I could manage the temperature myself as it was a Sunday and i couldn’t face a full day at A & E, I just took some tablets and managed to bring the temperature down and spent the morning in bed and by the afternoon started to feel more human. It was 38.7 when I woke up so should have called but I seem to have lived to tell the tale, I am obviously not saying this is what anyone else should do, it was just what I did.
I hope everyone has a good weekend and people are beginning to feel well.
I have pre chemo bloods this morning before 4th EC on Tuesday and then am going to go into my office for a few hours, I am so bored working at home all the time. Be nice to see a few people but many work in the office on a Friday.
Be so good to be half way through, I am over this now, had enough, my hormone blockers have kicked in this week and I feel so hormonal, I want to cry at the drop of a hat which is interesting, has anyone else been entered into a medical menopause, how are you dealing with this?
Have a good weekend all xx
Hi @mz45 ,
Hope everything goes well with your bloods and you get the all clear xx
Before starting treatment i was perimenopausal and when the oncologist said that chemotherapy would accelerate the process i honestly thought yey a silver lining, which it is, but between the hot flashes and the night sweats… 
Before u havd my lumpectomy, i had these natural capsules that were really really great in dealing with the symptoms, but because I’m to have a mastectomy between chemotherapy and radiotherapy my surgeon doesn’t want me taking anything for menopause because even being a natural supplement it my contain something (don’t remember what) that he doesn’t want in my system for the mastectomy so basically I’m left to fend for myself in that regards… so summer cotton pj’s for me most of the time while the rest of the family has already winter pj’s 
… oh well… bring it… what bithers me the most is because I’m sweaty specifically in the evening and after chemotherapy, a get a certain smell that honestly even after a shower i can’t shake… and definitely more emotional, some days are easier than others but generally there is some amount of tears…
Wishing everyone a good day xx
Morning ladies
It’s my last EC today (4 of 4). Although I’m not excited for the coming week or so of side effects it is good to get the ‘biggies’ over with before starting the weekly Paclitaxol in November.
Im going to wear my pink wig to my treatment today to celebrate!
Hope you all have a good day and weekend. Xx
Morning
Hope it goes well xx
Last EC is def worth celebrating 
You got this 
xx
