Hi Rosamund,
I’m so sorry you’ve had to join us but please rest assured you are in good company here. I was diagnosed back in March, age 34. I went to a ‘one-stop’ clinic and it was quite a shock when I walked in the hospital at 9am without cancer and walked out a couple of hours later with it!!! I had a right mastectomy and total axillary clearance a week after diagnosis. I started chemo in may, I too have/had a grade 3 tumour, 4cm, hormone receptive and 25/28 of my nodes were involved. After chemo I will be having rads, hormones and Herceptin as I’m also HER2+.
I remember only too well the first couple of days after diagnosis. Having to tell family and friends. Ringing people and telling them I had news, and every one of them saying ‘you’re either pregnant or you’re getting married, which is it?’. Then having to explain the awful truth. My best friend actually burst into tears and put the phone down on me! Thankfully she called straight back. We don’t have any children as yet so gratefully we were spared that additional stress of how to tell children.
I really hope your scans go well today. Its funny how hosps do things differently, I didn’t have my scans until after my op, and even then it was a CT and a bone scan as opposed to an MRI as so many others have had.
You are braver than you realise and you WILL fight this horror, as will all of us!!!
Take care and let us know how you got on today,
Kelly
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Rosamund, I have kept thinking about you and checking back here to see if you had posted. I will keep thinking about you. Remember that we are not alone. One day at a time and don’t expect too much of yourself.
Nicola
hi princess sry your here sweetie, i have clear so i,m lucky, i just cant leave you all as i have come to know you, you say you dont have kids yet? are you gonna have some eggs frozen hon before you have your rads
for future little ones??
i pray all goes well for you
love
cee
Hi my angels
Nicola, Cee,Maggie,Tracy,Breda, Maggie,Wens, Claire,Marge, Kelly, Nessielou, Galen, Dolphinack, and all of you who are sending love and healing to each other.
Also thanks to Sam the moderator for the information and support.I can’t begin to put into words, how these forums have helped me cope.
How can anyone feel alone, with all the wonderful support form you all, we all have a common cause to fight,and fight it we will.
After the bad news on Tuesday, of course I sank into the depths of despair and cried buckets. we all do naturally.
I am blessed to have a wonderful husband (we got married on 4th Feb last year) he has not left my side this week.
He organised the scans for me and an appointment to see my consultant next Thursday, he insisted the hospital did not keep me waiting any longer. I had a CAT scan in the morning at one hospital and a bone scan at another in the afternoon, a long and very tiring day.
I had so much dye and radiation in me I imagined I was a Rainbow, I felt very un-easy during the bone scan and even sang "Over the Rainbow " to myself to keep my mind off it.
I know this is only the beginning of the battle for me, and the worst is yet to come, but I now know the enemy.
I believe that whatever comes there is always someone worse off, this terrible disease is non-selective ,sadly affects so many.
Stay with it girls, Be strong,
sending you all love n hugs Rosamund xxx
P.S Cee, thanks for continued support for us all, you are a star.x
breast cancer and all that come
we fight we are not done
life kicks us in the teeth
little do they know the courage beneath
for all you gals that fight this fight
remember its not only your plight
for out of your sight on bended knee
i,m praying for you all little ole me
get rid get angry you deserve to shout
anything to get this cancer out
there will be some terrible bouts
if your not strong we will shout
this desease can never win
nor can the heartaches it brings
remember at anytime of day and night
theres always someone praying for you out of sight
godbless you all
cee
Hi Cee,
thanks for the lovely message you sent me. Unfortunately I was not able to have any of my eggs frozen before chemo as my tumour is hormone receptive and the treatment would have involved pumping me with hormones and so it was just too risky. We have to put our faith in the powers that be really and I can only hope that once all my treatment is over I will still be able to conceive. I am 35 and have been told that this is still highly possible so fingers and toes crossed!!!
Hope all you lovely ladies are ok and enjoying the weekend as much as possible,
Kelly
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Oh, Cee,
Your poem is so up-lifting, thanks a million for that.
I am a bit down again today you have raised me up, you are one of life’s angels.
I will print your words and keep them close by me, to help me be brave and strong.
Thanks from all of us for your prayers and inspiration. I feel like I have always known you.
Love always Cee, love n healing to all Rosamund xxx
Hi Kelly,
You have been very much in my thoughts, so young to be affected by the terror of bc.
We can only trust the experts and keep hope that they are doing the best for usr.
I will pray that your wish to have a child comes true, and that all we be as would wish for yourself.
Sending you love n hugs.
Rosamund x
hi kelly and rosamund
your more than welcomed, i would walk a step for you if it gets too much for you, kelly you are very young but then cancer does not care who it affects.
your all so strong, so brave and full of courage, i,m sure you will battle and beat this awful desease.
if you need to vent then vent life sometimes sucks but it is all we have and i know you you aint gonna give up without a fight.
if any of you need a few words, i,m pretty good at poetry and encoragement so just you yell for me.
well heartbeat is just starting so gonna switch brain off for awhile lol
i am living on borrowed time anyway, i have had 2 heart attacks qand suffer unstable angina, i have a spinal injury and in a wheelchair 24/7 and i,m type 2 diabetic and full of arthritis.
so i have faced bad news but alas if i did have bc i would still be scared and angry so beat it out you two your such wonderful folk and i send you a gentle hugs
one day life will be good again
love
cee
I’ve just read this thread for the first time and could feel the tears welling up with love for all of you lovely, brave ladies. I’ve no doubt that we all have not just good days and bad days but moments of real strength and moments when we need some uplifting ourselves. Because we are one big band of people together we are ALL fighting this as a unit so none of us needs ever feel alone.
Bless all of you.
beano x