I was driving along on the way for my 2nd Covid injection - a lovely sunny day and plans to come home and get on with some crafts.
Suddenly from out of nowhere, I had to pull over I was crying I had this overwhelming sadness/blackness and a feeling of truly hating myself.
I am totally sick of trying to handle all of this on my own it has started to weigh me down.
I have finished all my treatment - but as with cancer nothing is ever over is it - but today it all seemed so utterly depressing.
I know these feelings are normal and they will come and I hope ‘go’ but even if and when they do go - they linger deep in the old memory bank no matter how hard you try not to let them take over.
Did you feel better after a good cry? It sounds like you are still in the grieving process. Give yourself time, share your thoughts and feelings and seek support if you feel you need it.
Make sure you do something nice for yourself as often as you can!
Hoping your black mood has lifted again by now. Just to say I’m sorry you’re going through this - I find it hard when I feel down all of a sudden without much of a reason.
Can you get any support especially as you’ve gone through all this on your own? The ‘someone like me’ service on here, Maggies, Macmillan, Penny Brohn Centre helplines or help via your Breast Care Nurse team - if you feel that could help a bit and it’s your ‘cup of tea’.
Black moods come and go…I get them too…crying helps and I find that taking a moment to focus on my breathing helps to settle my mind; as does going out for a walk. I’m interested to know what you’re crafting…as I’m into knitting and cross stitch. I find these outlets provide a worth while distraction.