Final chemo today… I cried all the way to the hospital, sounds silly but I really did n’t want to go. My husband parked the car so I could hug and kiss the children and him then I burst into tear again. I just stood and watched the doors… I didn’t want to go through them but of course I did…I cried all the way down the long corridor that take you to the reception area and them cried in the lift up to the chemo unit…sat in the wating area…crying… This last one has been so very tough for me to take in. This has been the worst journey of my life so far. A journey filled with so many different extremes of emotions. A journey that has only been made possible by the love and support of family and friends. Thank you everyone. I have shared so ver much with you all at I don’t think there are any secrets left about the life of Boo.
I still have the next three weeks to get through. I still have to cope with the icky sicky feelings and the waves of nausea that are sure to hit on day three, as always. I have to come to terms with the fact that I still have a long way to go, that this isn’t the end but the first part is over. Now I have to try and forget about it. That isn’t going to be easy.
I just wanted to let yoou know how I felt today and to thank you for the good luck vibes. I am very lucky to know such a wonderful bunch of women you show such support for someone they have never met.
It is over…the PICC line has gone. a huge wieght has been lifted off my shoulders.
Thank you everyone and good luck to those just starting out or are already on their journey. xxx
Well done Boo, what an emotional day for you. I expected to be like that, but it didn’t quite happen like that!
I agree entirely with you about this amazing group of women on here, we have this lifeline which we are all eternally grateful for. Like you I couldn’t do any of this without my family and friends. We are blessed in that respect.
Its awesome news that you’ve finished chemo, good on 'ya. As you know I finished just over 3 weeks ago and already I’m finally starting to feel really good and quite ‘normal’! Its a lovely feeling!
Take care and be sure to celebrate this milestone soon as you feel well enough,
Congratulations Boo on coming to the end of your chemo. You certainly had some rough times throughout.
Just think christmas is coming and by the time it arives, chemo will be at the back of your mind, your taste buds will be back and you will be looking forward to seeing in 2008.
It’s funny how us cyber friends all share our intimate secrets on here. There is no other bunch of people in the world that know all about our boobs, periods, piles, lack of libido, hot flushes and yet we are all complete strangers!! My last chemo is in 2 weeks and I think I will start weening my way off this site but it will be hard.
Your day 3 will come & go and just 1 week from now…your life will be yours again
Well done Boo for getting to the end of the chemo. I’ve read a lot of your posts and you’ve had a really tough time but somehow kept your humour - do hope things get a bit better for you now. It is a roller coaster ride and so hard keeping it togher when you are feeling rough and have little ones - you’ve done brilliantly.
cheers
caroline
Well done Boo on getting to the end of your chemo, you have been through the mill more than most on some of your sessions with the hospital visits etc. You have been an inspiration though to all of us, and managed to get through.
Good on you and go celebrate and give those babies a hug.
Well done Boo you have been an inspiration to lots of us, like a previous lady said you have been on an uphill struggle but always manage to sneak in some humour even if just a little sometimes.
Yours have been one of my favourite threads and given me the strength to get through my chemo and now you have reached the top of your mountain and can work your way back to health down the other side.
Well done, have a fantastic Christmas with your children and family.
Yahoo… The last one is done well done Boo. I too finished my last one yesterday and I was sick for the first time this morning!! They said it would get worse at the end. I can’t believe that 6 months have passed since I have been mailing everyone and Jules is right we don’t know each other but we know each others secrets and scares and everything else. I personally couldn’t have done this without this website that’s for sure. Best Luck with everything and let us know how things are going.
Hi Boo, that’s fantastic! You’ve got yourself through this bloody awful time and at the same time you’ve done so much to help us all do the same. Its been wonderful to have you to share all this with
THANK YOU!
Jo
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Just to ditto everyone above, CONGRATULATIONS, you’ve done it!! You really have had some tough times but you can start to put that all behind you. I want to also thank you for some of your posts which have had so much humour it has really helped, even when you have been going through some horrible times I sometimes wondered how you did it. You really are amazing and your family must be so proud of you. I wish you lots and lots of brilliant times ahead.
Just think. This time next week you’ll be perking up and taking the steps back to some kind of normality. You’ve done well. Good luck with the next step. It’s gotta be easier than chemo.
It’s an emotional read to hear someone coming out of the other side. I could not reply yesterday as I was crying so much and so very sorry for myself!!!
Nevertheless, As someone who is right at the start it is such a strong message. I hope to try and live in the moment more, not worry about what has not yet happened and think only of the best possibilities. Someone gave me a book, Slaughterhouse 5 by Kurt Vonnegut. It spoke to me about viewing your life as a whole; as if one were viewing the Rocky mountains, full of peaks and troughs for all the godd, bad experiences in your lifetime. Ultimately celebrating how beautiful those mountains are, and that that is what makes them so amazing…
Thankyou Boo for your inspirational thread
Thank you to everyone on here… I am so glad you have been there for me and I am so glad that I have been able to help others. Just remember, laughter really is the best medicine and that there are always other people worse off than yourself. Live for the day and enjoy every second of it. I will pop on here now and again but feel the time has come to move onto the next step of my journey…the tamoxifen page…oooh, spooky. I will try and fill the chat thread with some funny bits for those still plodding on with their chemo and I want you to know that I write the funny bits just for you.
Good luck and rememebr the more you share of your worried they really do get easier.
Just wanted to add in my congratulations that this stage is finished for you - it has sure been rocky. You have made me smile too and have lots of advice to give - you are an inspiration.
I hope the next 3 weeks go speedily by for you and you can start moving on
Hey Boo - well done! We always knew you would get there, but it’s been quite a journey. Look after yourself girl, as you say, you’ve got to get better from this last dose. But no more chemo unit for you - hooooooooooooooooooray!
Looking forward to reading your first post when you feel better - and don’t hesitate to come back for a moan in between!
Sarah
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I know you have suffered an awful lot through chemo whereas I really got off lightly and would do it again before I ever went near another radiotherapy department.
I have to say the end of chemo was an anticlimax for me except it gave me a window to go on a decent holiday.
I’m glad others are able to feel much more celebratory about this milestone, power to you all.
