A really SHIT day Today…I have brain mets now to add to my collection!!! I went for the CT scan Today and I had asked for a head scan to rule out those weird twinges. I had got dressed again and was waiting for my cannula to be taken out, when the radiographer can back and asked me to go back for another scan of my pelvic area…alarm bells started to ring then she asked me to pop up to the breast Unit. I was thinking where could it spread to it my pelvic area as had ovaries etc removed. So I decided that it must be my pancreas, as my Dad had died of pancreatic cancer. I waited for a while at the unit and the Breast Care nurse came out and chatted to me, I asked if it was bad news and she nodded her had sadly. So after thinking allsorts I was let into an oncologist, who had my head scan on his screen. I was bowled over to be told a had quite a few suspicious areas! (I was convinced it was skull mets, but wanted a CT for piece of mind!) in my brain. There are too many for cyberknife, I have to meet this oncologist and my oncologist on Tuesday to start whole brain radiotherapy! And I still don’t know why they had to do the pelvic scan?..saving more bad news for my my next visit I guess. I have never had good news only progression and treatments failing. I am feeling really shit Tonight!
Oh Nicky, I’m terribly sorry that you’ve had such s**t news. I just wanted to send you a HUGE hug & let you know that I’m thinking of you & hoping you get some more news soon & a treatment plan in place.
Lots of love,
Dugsy xxxx
Oh nicky that really is so sh*t as you say. Everyone’s worst nightmare really with this disease. I just want to give you a great big hug and not say anything else. ((((((((-)))))))))
Dawn
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Nicky i’m so sad for you… i want to give you a big cuddle. i wish i could say something to take it all away for you. I hope you have someone with you to hold you close.
Lynn
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Nicky I am so sorry to read this news- I am shocked so goodness only knows how you are feeling 
Im glad your team seem to be moving very fast on this and I’m hoping the WBR is arranged quickly and isn’t too hard on you. I have been in touch with someone else who has just completed wbr this week and she coped amazingly with minimal se’s. I will pm you her details and maybe you could get in tuch for some advice and tips. Apparently juicing beetroot and carrot twice daily really helps reduce se’s.
Lots of love and luck, from Tina xxx
Hi Nicky
I wish I could wave a magic wand and take it all away from you - so sorry - sending you a big hug and wish you best of luck for upcoming treatments. Remember in your darkest moments that there are lots of us rooting for you.
Love, Alison xx
Hi Nicky,
I’m really sorry to hear about this progression. There’s nothing I can think to say which might remotely help you, but wanted to acknowledge your post and tell you that I am one of the army of women supporting you.
Vickie
Oh that is just c*ap, am so so sorry to read this. Am thinking of you, sorry I can’t do any more than thatx
I’m so sorry this is happening to you. Sending you big hugs xxxx
Nicky, I really wanted to send my support.
Debx
Oh Nicky, what cr*p news for you. My prayers are with you. xx
Have had my rant on facebook. Am sending you all the love and support I can muster…
As has been said, we are all behind you and against this bloody disease.
Julie xxx
Hi Nicky,
So c**ppy, just want to say am thinking of you and sending you lots of hugs xx
Oh, Nicky,
Only just seen your post. I’m so so sorry to hear this. I thought Xeloda will stop Brian mets so not expecting to hear this from you.
A few threads on here are related to Brian mets. You might want to have a read and join one of those.
Give me a ring this weekend if you want to.
Holding your hands and sending you a hug.
M xxx
Dear Nicky
I am sorry to read your news, please don’t forget you can call our helpline for further support in addition to the wonderful help you have here, lines open tomorrow from 9am on 0808 800 6000 (weekdays 9-5 and Sat 9-2)
I am posting a link to the secondaries page where you can find further information and support when you are ready to:
breastcancercare.org.uk/secondaries
Take care
Lucy
Hallo Nicky - haven’t been on site for several weeks and to come on today and find your news - well - my heart goes out to you. Will be thinking of you as you weigh up treatment options with your consultants… All my very best wishes…
Nicky - I’ve ranted on FB too. Oh for a magic wand to take all this cr@p away from you. Fingers crossed for prompt treatment that will help. xxxx
Hello Nicky, I too am very sad to hear of this new development but you have the warmth and support of all of us on here to help you get through this difficult time. This crap disease makes me so mad and angry. I cannot imagine how you are feeling right now. Hugs, Val
Dear Nicky
My post disappeared, but just wanted 2 say thinking of you, cant imagine what this feels like. Sending virtual hugs 2u &family.
Alis
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Nicky,
I’m so sorry to hear your sh!tty news. Huge hugs coming from me. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx