Hi
I have just turned 49 and was diagnosed with breast cancer the beginning of May, after numerous scans, biopsy’s and mammograms I was told I had a large calcium mass which was cancerous. I had a mastectomy on my right breast on 20th May and had my lymph nodes on my right side removed. I am certainly getting there and more active now but tonight I removed my bandage from around my breast area as last week I wasn’t ready to see it so the district nurse said it was fine to keep it on until I was ready. Was I ready? No but I needed to remove it, I have been crying ever since. I know it is early days and I will get easier but I feel so sad. I also in a way glad I am single but then again think Omg who would want to see this? I know I am lucky the cancer has been removed but this is the first time I feel angry ?
Zoe xx
Hi Kenny1970
My heart breaks for you feeling so sad… I know exactly how you feel! ?Your post resonates with me!
I was diagnosed in Aug 18 with invasive Lobular breast cancer which had spread to my lymph nodes, I was completely devasted that I was having my breast removed…I loved my boobs…we’ve been together a long time…my daughter said she didn’t think I would go thru with the op!
I had surgery in March of this year… I didn’t have dressings on so I forced myself to look straight away… I was so shocked I cried my eyes out! ??
I would say that everything you’re feeling is normal…its early days for you…you’ll be feeling a bit down from surgery and the effects of the anaesthetic too which doesn’t help… I just wanted to say that I am slowly getting used to having my beloved breast removed and things have become easier but I still have days when I could cry about the whole thing! Be kind to yourself - if you want to cry…then cry…it’s a traumatic time but hopefully, you will feel better in time!
Thinking of you Zoe…and wishing you well for your recovery! If you need a shoulder…we’re all here for you! ???
Aneeebel x