Called in the Cavalry
Called in the Cavalry Hi everyone
Had to bite the bullet and ask to see my counsellor again. Lost the plot somewhere along the way after rads finished. Did not think I would feel this low again, crying low esteem tired but cannot sleep. My counsellor was very sympathetic and told me to stop blaming myself…which i must admit I have been doing. Tried to get back to work but it was too soon and my body would not let me. The hot flushes have returned with a vengeance (did stop during rads) and my skin will not stop itching where the rads hit…keep slapping on the cream but although helps a little bit but does not take it away completely.
Is anyone else going through these feelings, I feel so alone at times, here in body but not in mind…
Thought I would be over the worse but seems not to be…
Elaine
Elaine, so sorry you’re feeling so low. You are not alone. I think it’s tough this time after all the treatment when people start expecting us to be able to resume normality. I do think it’s easier for some more than others and the side effects of the various treatments seem to vary. I think it’s incredibly tough when side effects kick in and stop us from feeling good physically. And then of course there’s the mental /emotional side of things. Trying to come to terms with the diagnosis and living with it. I do think you’re wise to seek the support of a counsellor.
I have started back at work 11 months after being diagnosed. I only work part time but the fatigue is getting to me at the moment. I do have a lot on at present but with aching knee caps and the old insomnia playing havoc with me at night I know the feeling. Have you spoken to the BreastCancer care nurse about the itching?
Take care
F
Thanks Hi F
Thanks for your kind reply. I stupidly started work 3 days after treatment finished, wanted to prove to everyone that I was fine and just needed to get on with my life…Boy was I wrong…too early too soon, feel a failure at the moment with everything I do or say…Sleepless nights…hot sweats…bring it on…Have spoken to Doctor re itching just keep slapping on the cream. The counsellor was brilliant, even if I did spend the whole hour crying…which is what I seem to do all the time these days. At least i know she is there when ever i need her and also these chat rooms have been a god send to me…
Anyway thanks again
Speak soon
Elaine
emotions hi elaine hoe are you ive posted a message on another thread for you but just wanted to say that i too have had a wobbler today and coulnt stop crying for over and hour . i think its just everything has got on top of me and as my friend had a new baby today i was emotional anyway so we all have these down days i thought i was handeling things ok up till now but things have a habit of creeping up on you when you least expect it.ive read the article mentioned on this site re dr peter harvey and if you can read it it will help anyway hope tomorrow is a better day for all of us one day at a time is all you can do ok .sending you yellow roses for peace love lynn xx