Since my mum got her diagnosis a couple of weeks ago, I have been going through a daily change of emotions. Some days I am so sad and upset and cry at the slightest thing, the next I am filled with anger, silly things that would not normally bother me get me so wound up, then I have a day of being ok and positive about her getting well, it seems to go in literally three or four day cyles. I hate feeling this way and feel totally out of control of my emotions. Is this normal, can anyone advise me as I feel like I am going mad.
Thank you everyone for your continued support and advise.
J x
hi jules
i felt like i was going mad after my mum was first diagnosed, i was crying at everything and anything- (the x-factor was one thing), then i would get really angery at lots of little things like friends talking about what paint they are choosing for there new house, silly little things would set me off, think i went through a slight stage of depression, now i look back. i just wanted to be on my own.
I even found it hard to talk to my mum about anything, so i started to avoid it. strange things emotions! as the time has went on i am feeling much better, don’t get me wrong even now a few months down the line i still feel like i am worring myself sick, but it has got better.
hope you feel better soon.
jo
xxx
Thanks Jo, It’s horrible its like a rollercoaster and you just can’t get off. Another thing, I take everything really personally. If I don’t hear from my friends to see if my mum/or myself are ok I take it really personally, and accuse them of not caring. It is silly as I have a really good network of family and friend and no I am being totally unreasonable. I guess this brings out your vulnerability that I guess we all have. I know what you mean about the paint kind of thing. It is like why are you talking about this rubbish when my mum is ill! And also if someone says something negative accidently I home in on that and find I get so cross, thank you for making me realise I am not going off my trolley so to speak lol
Ps after my mum’s diagnosis has revealed that it was due to HRT, I told my hubby when it gets to that time I will not be taking it, his reply was “would I notice a difference” lol
Love jules xxxx
I seem to be having a calm day today! Dont suppose it will last lol