Cant cope, terrified

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Hi, im 26 and last january found a lump on my right breast. Beggining of march i was told it was breast cancer. I had a right side mastectomy with lymph node biopsy, this came back with 2 nodes affected so then had a lymph node clearance. Then chemo started june and finished september and then radiotherapy finished in november. Been on tamoxifen since october.

My left breast has always felt a little lumpy at the bottom but when checking myself a few days ago i questioned if what i was feeling had always felt like that or not as there is one inpartucular lump amongst it all.

I am so scared but cant get seen at the clinic until 10th of february. Cant stop stressing, constantly feel sick and really struggling. My BCN is very unhelpful so i cant even speak to her about it as she just doesnt seem bothered. 

When i was first diagnosed last march i had a breast MRI and mammogram and the left side came back clear at the time.

My gut feeling is telling me its going to be bad news and i just cant cope with the waiting.

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hi sunshine2, i’m 26 too, was diagnosed last year and still in the radiotherap. i know how u feel, but don’t worry…they almost always give the young ladies chemotherapy to reduce the chances of recurrence which might be higher for ladies our age…i think it’s very unlikely to be a tumor because of the chemotherapy uv been having since last june till september - so even if there WAS something there (which wasn’t there by june) and can’t have been growing during chemotherapy, then it can only have begun right after september which is also very unlikely with the chemotherapy drugs still in your system. it’s too short a time period for a recurrence ore another tumor growth. don’t worry too much…uv gone that far. it will be fine :slight_smile: the waiting is cruel, but will make the good news all the more worthwhile. take care of urself