I posted last week as a newbie, due to have surgery on 4th May - wide excision and SNB. Today I have broken my ankle and all the things that I was doing to keep busy, I now cant do.I feel so low today, crying and full of self pity. I cant cope with all the worry and this as well. I am sure i am jinxed.Cant drive til plaster comes off, approx 12 weeks and that means I have lost my independence. I have been trying to be positive but this has knocked me right back and now everything has got on top of me again. I am sorry for having such a moan but I feel at rock bottom tonight.Love to you all. Elaine
Dear Lainie,
I’m so sorry to hear about your broken ankle and can see how this has impacted on your ability to cope. It is a rotten thing to happen and at completely the wrong time for you so I’m not surprisedc you are feeling so upset.
I know you feel like you can’t cope but you can and you will, you just need to give yourself time to adjust and you need to accept that it’s ok to be angry, sad, frightened …Be gentle with yourself. Is there anyone, friend or family who can help?
Nothing I can say will cheer you at the moment but just wanted to let you know you’ve been heartd and you’re not alone, sending you a big hug, Julie xx
Dear Lainie, I just read your post about your ankle, try not to worry about what you cant do, easy done I know. Let other people look after you, if the weather is nice relax in the garden, read some good books, try not to put yourself under pressure. I had a wle & snb in jan, & to do honest the op its self was ok, but I didnt do much for a couple of weeks after, just rested & got myself fit for the next step of treatment.Good luck on the 4th & before you know it the plaster will be off, take it easy & try not to worry lesley xx
Think I can understand some of your angst…
I broke my arm at Christmas and the change in your independence is massive isn’t it?
Especially as you were planning to keep busy as a means of distraction before your BC surgery…
What a bummer!
It’s dreadful this has happened now. I can understand why you feel so jinxed!!!
Are you someone who can ask for help?
Maybe you could get people to visit/help you with some practical tasks and use this as a distraction???
It’s not easy when you are so upset but I really don’t think being on your own now would be very healthy…too much time to think and ponder!
Keep posting here as people will want to help…
Maybe try some of other threads too.
You have every right to moan and we do understand…
Take care tonight,
Welsh girl x
So sorry your in such a state of despair. Is there anything you can do to focus away from what you cant do?
Mcmillan and Force centres have some great counsellors perhaps if you have one near you could get an appointment for a chat and they may well have some excellent ideas for you.
Arrgh and heck!
Have a large virtual cuppa of some kind, which is as close as I can get to something consolatory from a distance…
Is there by any chance a local mobility-bus service that might be able to pick you up and take you to places? I’ve had to use them recently and it’s worked, but I know they tend to operate only in the bigger towns…?
Oh dear. Totally rubbish. No wonder you feel so fed up.
Being as theres nothing that can be done i guess you will need to resign yourself to it. Id suggest watching the TV but daytime telly would probably finish you off!
This is a really tough time and you need to accept and ask for help. It will all pass but this isnt really helpful to you at the mo.
Keep posting on here, in times when ive been chem-tozed and sofa-bound this forum has kept me sane.
chin up x
Hi Laine,
so sorry to hear about your broken ankle - I broke my toe just after I finished chemo and just when I was planning to get fit again by walking to my rads each day ( hosp about 30 mins away). I was devastated and totally down in the dumps. IN the end I just had to go with it - put the leg up and go dvd mad!!
bw Nicola
Hi Laine, so sorry what a bummer. Sending you lots of love xx
Hi there, and thanks to you all for your comments after I broke my ankle! I have calmed down quite a bit and have stopped ranting on about it not being fair! These things happen and in a strange way it has taken my mind away from the bc to some degree cos it hurts like hell and takes me ages to do the normal everyday jobs! My husband is now home for the next two weeks and I go into hospital on tues and op on Wed. So at last it is nearly here and I cant wait to get on with it. I still have an awful feeling of dread inside me and wish a could have my old life back but I cant, so I am hoping and praying that things wont be as bad as my run away mind thinks it might be. Good luck to you all and please give me a thought on Wed cos I am still terrified. Love and best wishes Elaine.
Elaine, just you rant away as much as you like because it ISN’T fair!
What a bummer though. I had a shoulder op a few years ago and couldn’t drive for 6 weeks and it drove me round the bend! Hopefully the painkillers they give you after your op will also work on your ankle and make that less painful too. (Can you see me scratching around for something positive? Oh, ok, I’ll stop.)
Are you near to any transport so you can still get around? Do you have friends who can step up to the mark and be taxi driver sometimes? With all you’re going through I’m sure people have said “let me know if there’s anything I can do” - well now’s the time to take them at their word! Don’t feel guilty about asking for help either, as you are actually doing them a favour by letting them do something genuinely helpful when you need it and THEY will feel good about being able to help.
Best of luck for a swift recovery from the busted foot, and for clear margins and nodes after your surgery.