Change of heart mid way through 2 stage reconstruction

Hi - I’m new here and new to this whole game. I’m 8 weeks post mastectomy for high grade DCIS and invasive lobular cancer. At the time of receiving diagnosis and treatment plans etc 2 stage immiediate reconstruction with tissue expander and implant seemed a reasonable option and least invasive. However its only now that Im realising the implications of having a permanent implant - and cant comprehend having it for the next maybe 30 years with further surgery to replace it in 10-15 years time - if the NHS still exists!!! I feel that I’ll never be able to draw a line under the experience and move forward. I just wondered if anyone knows whether its possible to have the tissue expander removed and start the whole reconstruction process again.

Think this is a result of lack of sleep and a feeling of constant PMT due to Tamoxifen.

Hi Max,
This is a very quiet part of the forum, you may find if youbrepost in the Living with and after breast cancer, or in the surgical treatment section you will get more responses. You could also try the help line to find a * some one like me * person , who has siilar experiences to you. Good luck, this was not my treatment path, so cannot offer any other thougts x x
LL xx