Conflicting letter

Have I got breast cancer? Appointments and waiting for test results
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Hi all, this is my second post so I hope no one minds letting off abit of worried nerves!!

I’m just on a mess…( again!)

Just came back from my walk to find another letter from the breast clinic saying I am discharged back to the care of the doctor. This letter was dated 29th September.  But 2 days ago when I recieved my mammogram recall and ultrasound request was dated 28th? I’m abit confused…I would have thought the NHS would have seen the notes on the system as it’s quite conflicting information…I’m assuming the recall supersedes the discharge letter as its booked for Tuesday. 

After receiving my recall and ultrasound I came on here litterly in bits but then I received some amazing advice from Evie and Jan and I’ve stopped panicking.  But for some reason I’m panicking even more now…reasons are because…

When i initially had my consultation and assessment the clinician couldn’t feel a lump, she was pretty 100 per cent sure its hormones as its unusual to get a localised prickly sensation to the touch as my doctor thinks its shingles, the clinician thinks its non cyclical breast pain and hormone related.  She gave me leaflets and crossed out the words “cancer” and there was a questionnaire 1 to 6 and she circled me being 1 and no concerns for ultrasound…

Have i received my letter now with all the discussion detail as something has since been picked up?? I’m.just so confused…

Now its worried me even more that there could be something suspicious on my xray and I cannot help but think do I have cancer, dont I? Why would i be offered an ultrasound if there wasn’t anything suspicious? There is just so much worry, I have this awful feeling I will be offered a biopsy too. But then part of me thinks, at least if i do have something i hope its caught relatively early…

I.just feel so sick and I want to bury my head in the sand and want it all to go away.  I hate not having answers straight away!   Part of me thinks I wished they would let me know in the letter why I’m recalled as I can then deal with that, with me it’s the not knowing…

I just have this awful feeling I’m going on a journey…its also at the same time my son has his 11 plus exam, so all this added stress is causing is just horrendous. 

The only thing that gives me hope is that non cyclical pain is a weird localised prickly feeling , but then why the ultrasound? 

I keep going around and around in circles punishing myself with all this…

Sorry for the rant but I’m just exhausted from worrying…xx

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It could be a mistake - it seems unlikely the clinician would tell you one thing then out of the blue get a recall letter .I have other health issues and under several consultants - Im always having to query stuff - Im afraid the NHS is not always very joined up at the moment - mistakes are made .Shame it’s the weekend so you can’t follow it up till Monday .x

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Hi Bluecat - I’m so sorry to read your post, but so glad you felt able to come back on here to offload and chat. You never need to apologise, it didn’t come across as a rant at all.

Jill makes a good point - give them a call on Monday and see what is going on. 

But in the meantime we need to hold your hand and get you through the next few days. One exercise I was given was to imagine what advice I would give to someone going through what I went through. Perhaps you could read your own post and imagine what you would say if a friend had written that and you wanted to help them. Sometimes we can advise others, but aren’t so good at taking our own advice (that’s very true in my case). I don’t know if that will help at all, but worth a try, I found it helpful. Also, do go back and read Jan’s lovely advice too.

Please keep chatting on here any time, and we will be here for you. Big hugs Evie xx