Stress has a terrible effect on your memory it also had a very bad effect on my driving the weeks leading up to op ,there was one piece of kerb on the route to work that I just could not avoid hitting !!!
Last night I gave a birthday dinner for my adult daughter and her friends, plus my two sons. The two older kids know what I am going through, and just trust me and are normal and cheerful thank goodness. I have not told my 16 year old youngest, but last night he came into my bedroom and said such adorable things to me (mostly concerning what he thought of my ex for how much he hurt me, and how strong I am, and apologising for being horrible sometimes etc) that I struggled not to cry. I am hoping that a good result on Tuesday will mean I can tell him and it will be reassuring rather than scary. I have been feeling such a failure recently (mood swings probably caused by coming abruptly off HRT) and so miserable, but youngest’s kind words really bucked me up. I looked at my boy, who I brought up largely by myself (with very unhelpful interventions from ex) and am so proud of him. I can’t be a failure really if I am loved by such fine young people. Lumpectomy on Tuesday. It feels like a horizon. Things to do before then though like make sure I have a clean house to come back to!
Good luck for Tuesday Tigony ,you will feel much better when the blooming thing is out of your body !!!
Through surgery and recovering at home. It was a bit full on, but fine and I am much happier today. I have written a full account on the surgery thread in case it is useful to anyone else. The lack of pain is a great bonus although I was plagued with a dehydration headache due to delays. Very very grateful to all at the hospital. What wonderful people.
Glad you got it over with .