Hi Kate I am not too bad, I know what it feels like to be worried about waiting for test results. I was in terrible state and thought it would be better not to know, but thats not the right way is it.I will send you a hug so take care and let me know how things are going. Lindalou
Hello Now that i have been given the all-clear my mum and husband,sister and daughter think its over for me,and i should feel okay, but i still feel terrible and i don’t know when i am going to feel different. I feel like i cannot go outside because i dont want to see anyone who knows me. They give me their opinions whether or not i want them, they know better than me what i can and can’t do. I think they must think i have gone mad or something. To be honest i cannot do with people who think they know everything. My husband told this person what was a matter with me when really i didn’t want anyone to know, then she said to me that she was calling me all round her house because i could not go and see tell her, the reason being she knows better than anyone else.
Lindalou, My husband is the same telling people without asking me first, and then last night do you want to go to church to pray! I have not been to church for a very long time .I was upset and he he could not understand why. I think they are looking for support from other people. Close your eyes and think of a nice blue sky and warm sun. Are you still on for running away. Take care never mind about anyone else your number 1.
Kate
Lindalou, If it’s any help I’m feeling pretty similar, I think. Everyone says it’s great to ‘have the all-clear’ and I don’t know why it doesn’t feel great to me. Then I feel ungrateful because there are plenty of people who are given horrible news and who are in a desperately bad situation. I just put on a big smile when people ‘congratulate’ me. I guess it’s just a matter of time and the bad feelings will all subside eventually.
Sorry if this isn’t much use but I guess it shows that it’s not uncommon to feel like this.
Lynda
LyndaC I feel exactly the same as you do. I don’t feel lucky. It makes me feel ungrateful too. I think its all the trauma that we have, when your treatment is over you cannot believe it has all happened to you. Its nice to know other people think the same. Take care Lindalou
Hi Kate If i had my way I wouldn’t have told hardly anybody. I had an Aunty that wrote me a letter to say she is sorry about me having the start of a deadly disease. That made me feel worse than ever, that is the last thing you want to hear. Perhaps that is their way of dealing with it. I hope you feel a little bit better from talking about it, I think it is helping me a little. Take Care Lindalou
Hi Lindalou, Yes people can make you feel worst than ever. maybe she is of a certain age, and assumes that all cancers are deadly.DCIS is treatable thank god. Being able to express our feelings and realizing that we are not alone has helped me. I am taking one day at a time. Hugs Kate
Hi Kate yes I agree with you, but i find it difficult to talk to anybody about it. Probably because I feel like I have had a shock and I am still there. I don’t feel like talking about it at the moment but I am finding this site helps me a bit and to read what others say about theirselves. I had my operation six weeks ago and i have taken the bus to my mums a couple of times and each time i found it drain me. I felt ill today I called my husband to see if he would pick me up at the bus stop. How are you today, are you feeling any better. Lindalou
Hi Lindalou, You have every reason to be feeling the way you do. Take it easy and look after yourself. I never thought it would happen to me I keep on thinking this is all a big mistake. I was feeling very low this morning and tired. I think it good to be able to chat on this site.
One day we will wake up with other things on our minds, we will never forget but maybe it will make us stronger in other ways. Remember you have come a long way don’t be hard on yourself, take it easy, you need to recover from the shock. Hugs Kate
Hi Kate I hope you are feeling a little bit better, I can understand that you think it is all a big mistake. I thought the worrying would never end. I have found this site a good help as you can voice your concerns about any of the treatment you have had or chat. I think it is people who have nothing wrong with themselves that they seem to know everything and i do try and ignore them after all what I have been through it should not matter. Do take it easy and look after yourself I send you a hug let me know how you are getting on. Lindalou
Hi Lindalou, I feel I can’t move on until I receive the results. Still went out today for a short walk and enjoyed it. I know I should be returning calls but I just don’t want to talk about it.How are you doing? Hugs Kate