Hope all you ladies manage to enjoy christmas as much as possible and the side effects are kind to you ? x
Thank you Meesh - have a lovely Christmas too!
Wish Christmas felt like Christmas this year though ?.. hmph!! Xx
Merry Christmas to you all, hope you can enjoy the day without too many se’s. xx
Happy Xmas ladies
Have a lovely day
and we’ll be ready it take on this journey in 2018 with help from our friends on this forum 
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Merry Christmas lovely ladies xxx
Rabbit and all December thread, hope you have all had a beautiful peaceful Christmas Day ??
shi xx
Happy Christmas December ladies. Mixed experiences which is to be expected.
The tingling face thing is normal it’s something I’ve had, you may find you fingertips get it too, it’s worse when you are tired and does pass. I find later in the cycle it only starts up again if I over do it so if I feel tingly I rest.
You can do this stay strong ladies some of us October ladies are heading towards our 5th treatment the time passes quickly x
Morning ladies
Hope you have all had a lovely Christmas!
I’m currently on Day 18 of cycle 1 (EC) with cycle 2 due on the 29th Dec. So far this cycle I’ve had nausea constantly for 10 days, heartburn and indigestion and a bit of an irritated bladder on and off around days 7-14. Other than that Ive had the expected fatigue and tiredness.
What I’m really struggling with is emotionally, Im starting to feel really angry, rageful, bitter, sad and fed up not only with the chemo but also just the unjust of hair loss (now got a patchy scalp) and how Ive ended up with breast cancer in the first place (stage 1, grade 3 IDC with lumpectomy). It’s not helped by the fact that chemo will now make me infertile when we were due to start IVF treatment next year.
How do any of you ladies deal with these emotions? I’m really struggling at the moment and feel like I’m just getting angry at those closest to me and it’s not really them that I am angry at, its the whole cancer journey. I really just want my life back and to be doing what I used to do.
Thanks and apologies for the whinge!
Jo x
Hey Jo - I have found the emotional side of things harder than the physical side effects. I have round 2 on Thursday and am hoping things are a little better. I found I had all of the feelings I had before my official diagnosis back… scared, angry, etc. I found yesterday especially hard. I guess we have to remember that we are one treatment down and we just keep ticking off those treatments!! X
Hi girls, I am the same as you and Sam, Jo, and find the emotional side of it all the hardest, phystical side effects can be dealt with and will pass but the feeling of loss of future plans around startting a family has been the toughest. like Sam says we just need to look at it as ticking off each treatment, Im finding I am just having to give myself a strong talking to in my head to try and not dwell on things that cant be changed, so trying to focus on getting better. Life is just so unfair and **bleep** sometimes. Sorry not much help as to how to deal with it but we are all strong and will get through together xx
Runawaygirl248 - my heart goes out to you, this is hard enough without the added distress of possible infertility. At the moment it seems as thou things are only being taken away from us, particularly things that define us as women - hair, breasts, fertility, even looking after our families and socialising with friends, going to work perhaps. I was told a useful thing a few years ago that might help, it was while I was on an NCT course preparing for the birth of my son, and this session was to deal with the possibility of the baby not being healthy. Imagine you have a trip to Paris booked. You have planned everything you want to do - visit the Eiffel Tower, boat trip on the Seine, shopping on the Champs Elysee, night at the opera. But when the plane lands, you find you are in Amsterdam. You don’t want to be in Amsterdam. You know nothing about Amsterdam. You want to be in Paris, it’s not fair. But you get in a cab and start to explore and, actually, there are windmills, beautiful landscapes, and lovely canals, and those infamous coffee shops…! What I’m trying to say is, this may not be what you have chosen, but you will find joy in other things that you may not even be able to imagine yet. Cancer may take away the future we had planned, but the point of all this treatment is that it gives us back a new future. Please try to think about this when you are having a low moment. Look after yourself and always tell us if you’re having a wobble xx
Dramaminx - what a lovely way of putting things. Actually made me feel quite emotional reading things in that way… but it’s really does feel true.
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Jo, I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way, let rip here, we’re on your team ?
Dramaminx lovely post.
Fab way to put it dramaminx and so very true. No one really knowa what the futures holds so we need to embrace each day as it comes along.
Just been out for a lovely snowy boxing day walk with blue skies ans sunshine, appreciate the small things 
Wishing you all some happiness and rest over Christmas. Emotions are high…that I know xxxx
Hi runaway girl, big hug and ?to you my darling. Speak to you bc nurse and the Mcmillan centre at your trust, they are there to help support us in this journey and you have so much ch more than the bc diagnosis going on in your life you can get the support and guidance you need from them. You can get a lot of love, support, laughs and friendship from the threads as you all navigate your way through the crazy that is chemo. Previous threads help each other through this and then you will pass your knowledge on as well to threads that will come after this Dec one. You will never be alone in this journey we keep each other safe and get each other through step by step. I’m from Oct thread. ??shi xx
How r people managing their food? I just can’t eat. Bloated, indigestion and no appetite at all.
My husband and son can’t cook so I’m still having to do it all.
I’m also awake all night. On FEC-T and only 7 days since 1st chemo.
Already I feel I can’t go on. Completely drained and exhausted.
I’m 70 have had a good life feel like throwing in the towel.
Hi camilla, I think we all feel like you do after the first one, it’s overwhelming. Please speak to your bc nurse and your onc and let them know how you are feeling, they are there to help and support you and you will feel better after you have spoken to them about everything. The threads with all the beautiful, kind, loving, super ladies on here will help you through this journey, you will never be alone and always have loving arms guiding and supporting you as much as you need as and when. ???shi xx
Hi Camilla. Try and eat a little and often that helps with the stomach issues sometimes. If you are struggling to eat try getting some Complan. You can order it off Amazon but it’s like power you make into a milkshake and has lots if goodness in it. It’ll help your body recover. Make sure you keep hydrated.
I think I’ve felt like I can’t do another cycle after every one. I am now due cycle 5 on Thursday. Tell your oncologist at your next chemo as they may be happy to reduce the dose. They did that with me and it was a million times more manageable.
Don’t worry we all get these moments but you can do. We’re all here to support you
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Hi camilla, sorry you’re having a tough time. Have you tried eating things you don’t have to cook? Like a sandwich or a few biscuits, as sometimes the smell of food makes us feel worse. I try and batch cook some things before each cycle so that I can just heat them up, soup is especially good as it’s quick to reheat and takes minimal effort. Perhaps buy some ready meals as again these take little effort. I know that doesn’t help you for this cycle. Are you still taking meds for the nausea and indigestion? I had an acidey feelng on cycles 1&2 I spoke to my team and they prescribed omeprazole and I have been much better on cycles 3&4. As the others have said we have all had times where we have been very down usually days 5-8 when we come off the steroids. Hang in there you can do this, stay strong??? hopefully you will find that things will improve over he next few days.