Im 38 and since I was 19 i have been having lumps but all been fine until now! I never for the life of me thought this would be Cancer, this time not worried or anything! but the day I Had mamogram and ultra sound and got told they was sure it was and just needed confirmation, my world fell apart. Then on 23rd December had it comfirmed. I was very calm which I am shocked at myself as normally im an emotional wreck! I was positive and wanted full breast removal but my consultant said it was too big and needed chemo first. I finally started chemo on 22nd Jan and surprisingly not been bad. I have 3 children my eldest is 11 in couple of weeks, my middle one is 9 and youngest 4, eldest 2 know but youngest just knows mummy is not well. over last couple of days been having little hair loss, but today lot more I am so frustrated now, going through all the normal things others have said! why me, emotional, frustrated and scared and most of all its real I have breast Cancer and I am so scared!
I didnt know when to expect hair loss for definate as everyone is different, I didnt think it would be till after my next chemo in 10 days.
Now i am worried how my babies will deal with it
