And thank you so much everyone else also - I don’t know where I would b without this forum x the early mornings are bad but I’m also in the late nights!!! Not a good combination - I’m going to see how I go over the weekendx I don’t think I e ver been this tired xxx
Phewwww its 3:30am & can’t sleep - tonight was my big 46th birthday party - I managed to DJ for an hour but little dancing as so tired… 150 Latin dancers, most of whom are my students/friends, hugs, great music, pictures, cake, love & support but utterly & totally exhausting. I cried more than I wanted but mainly due to tiredness… Tonight I said goodbye to the dance part of my life for a while but I’ll be back & I’ll still be dancing in my head 
Now I’m looking forward to getting ready for xmas with my kids, then starting treatment… Just want to get fighting now!!!
I’ve read all the new posts and I just want to say thank each of you for sharing this part of my journey with me - Karen x
Wow Karen!!! That sounds like one hell of a party!!! Dancing shoes might be off for a little while but those toes can still tap out and you will be swinging a little Latin number again really soon xxx I was up at 3 ( sigh ) - could’ve played virtual tango or something!
Rose - Santa express one of my favourites! Girls identical but one has defect ( being fixed by operation in two years time - I known way around a hospital!) - they are my lights x I have 19 year old son who texted last night to say he’s coming home today for a couple of weeks I- so excited x I’m by myself as husband left me early November ( shock totally through ME until I got diagnosis then I have had to get over it quick ) - so I need to work x prob is its a tough job -regular 40-50 hour weeks - im looking forward to HR meeting to find out where I stand a bit more x
Have a good weekend ladies x sarah
PS Sarah hope the HR Meeting went well and empathiese re kids, ex husbands, job etc you are doing brilliantly… In my thoughts Kx
Rose, I love your description ‘journey of weirdness’ hehe as it most certainly is *siggghhhhhh 
Thanks for thinking of me - really appreciate it Rose - likewise Kx
Journey of weirdness DEFINATELY!!! Spent 5.5 hours at hosp today - long story but masectomy 12 jan because xmas and consultant hol etc - decided to delay reconstruction because couldn’t face any more decisions due to everything recently - initially I was " new boo. Please " but then when they explained it all I thoght - I don’t have the energy to talk about thus anymore - not having my husband to support me was very hard today - so I am happy to just concentrate on getting better and handing over to the Drs now xxx staff at hospital so wonderful - he meeting tomorrow but my bCN said to tell them not to expect to see me for two months so that they could sort cover and I could stop worrying about work as well as everything else - and good news that my left boob has survived - found some stuff in mri but they r not worried and just going to monitor it over the next year xxx - like you all said - I do feel mighty relieved to at least have a plan and am going to seek funky ’ button ’ pjs in the sales xxx much love as always to you all x s
* hugs * rose xxx thinking of you on Monday xxxx enjoy the weekend x will be in touch soon sarah
Rosemaryanne,
Saw your message, I had bit of an icemaiden run around organising phase before my op back in June. Go with it, there’s no right or wrong, whatever gets you through it. I don’t know if you are good at visualisation but if you are it can help when you get to op day. You will get through it and you will emerge the other side. Thinking of you, it does get easier as you get further through treatment.
Seabreeze (post op, post radio, now on Tamoxifen)
Hi - to be honest I e been in a dream like state since the whole thing started x sent to work Xmas party tonight - had to leave early as am so bloody knackered and randomly got a bit upset - you know one of those ‘when u least expect it waves’ - dancing to a band then ’ need to get. Outra here’ - roll on ice maiden x I’ve got holiday booked afte next Tuesday and intend to race round being organised the n ! Oh - and for some reason my mum sent me ready made roast potatoes for Christmas day !!! I’m not actually having the op until 12 jan ! Hilarious x
Toe tapping with all my lovely ladies xxx
Add a bit of a shimmy with that toe tap Sarah haha x
I read all the posts on here with great interest and can relate to most of the comments, such a mixed bag of emotions, up one day down the next. I have now met my plastic surgeon who is very positive of the outcome of my reconstruction (Deip) which I will have at the same time as the mastectomy, am now just waiting for the date, I still feel as if I am talking about someone else. Best wishes to all for christmas and lets hope for some good health in 2015!!
Val
Can anyone send me the details of the FB page please
Val
Val
Facebook page is called The January Crew.mif you pm Katherine62 (Jane) post Xmas starters she can add you. I seem to have problems adding people.,I’m not very techy !!
See you there xx
Hi Matty - know exactly how u feel - I went to get some button tops and pjs at the weekend and realised I literallyvown nothing with buttons down the front - it all became ‘cancer clothes’ and I was super fed up x my bCN recommended our local john Lewis branch for measuring for the bra etc and I popped in there - they were lovely and showed me some maternity bras that were quite pretty - Ibe mad an appointment for after Christmas to see them. After this, I actually felt a bit happier - it’s madness - one minute up one minute ok … Still not sleeping though and this is becoming. Big issue now so think I’m going to try to see gp over next few days xxx take care and lots of hugs again to everyone
Ps Facebook is easy !!! If u can use this forum u can defo use Facebook x
Hi ladies, I got button front PJs at new look and they are pretty + in the sale.
The insomnia has finally got me and I’m exhausted again… Emotions bit more settled tho. I guess we just have to be kind & pace ourselves. Karen x
PS the Facebook group is much easier to use than the forum format in my opinion
Hi rose, hope you are all set for tomorrow - I will be thinking of you. I bet it feels like you have been waiting a lifetime for tomorrow to come. I think the whole array of emotions you have been going through are perfectly normal in these circumstances. I went from an anxious wreck to an ice maiden with horns over the 3 weeks from diagnosis to op 2 weeks ago. I don’t get my results til 30th dec but even after waking up from the op I felt as though a massive weight had been lifted.
Take it easy and let your family look after you over Christmas…
Lorraine x
Will be thinking of you rose xxx - the only thing I’m looking forward to is someone making me sleep - lol - will b the first time I go out easily in about eight weeks !!! Lots love x sarah