Shouldn’t something that makes you feel this crap, actually work??
Hi all.
I have browsed the forums before, but this is my first posting… and I need some advice please.
A brief history - I was diagnosed in 2002 whilst pregnant with my only child, and aged 28. The original lump was in my armpit (so already at stage 2) and a grade 3 tumour. After I had my son, scans showed it hadn’t spread any further - when my onc said he was aiming for a cure hopes were high. I had the standard 6 cycles of chemo, a left mastectomy with axillary clearance, then radiotherapy to my collar and chest wall. I was then put on Tamoxifen for two years. However about a year later a small lump appeared in my neck (on the same side) and eventually tests showed my cancer had returned. I had several lumps by this time and the skin around the site of my surgery had started to thicken and go red and itchy, but again scans showed that although lymph nodes in my chest were affected, my organs were clear - it could have been worse.
However it was at this point I was told I could no longer be cured, but that it could be controlled, possibly for a very long time. I psyched myself up for more chemo but the expression my onc used was ‘we don’t want to use a sledgehammer to knock in a nail’. So I started a course of Zoladex and Arimidex which made me feel unwell and didn’t work. So a few moths later I started Capecitabine which was fanatastic, worked really well and with very few side effects. Herceptin, then joined the fight and this combination seemed to work really well, I wouldn’t have known I was ill and things were looking up. It went on like this for about three years; I’d have a course of capecitabine with Hercpetin, the lumps would shrink, I’d have a break in treatment, they’d return, back on the treatment…etc.
Gradually the chemo became less effective. Lumps had appeared on the ‘good’ side, in my armpit and neck (none in the breast, oddly) but severe sores on my ‘bad side’ wall, and when the herceptin damaged my heart function my onc decided it was time to stop the treatment and have a rethink. This was in early December 08. There then followed a period of six weeks where I had no treatment and during this time the cancer seemed to go crazy. The lumps in my neck and chest grew enormously and were becoming painful. Then swelling built up around the lumps and I now have what feels like a huge fused mass on my neck and jawline and spreading up the side of my face, it is painful and tender up to my temple, and unsightly and the skin in bumpy, purple-red in colour, sore and itchy.
Needless to say I couldn’t wait to start docetaxol on 12th January. My cancer had always responded really well to cancer and I took it for granted that I would notice a different straight away and it would be the answer to all my problems. However, after one dose, although it seems to have had a remarkable effect on the huge sores and lumps on my chest wall, alarmingly the huge mass on the side of my face is still growing - in fact it seems to be gaining momentum, and is becoming more and more painful.
I will see my onc (well, a registrar no doubt) tomorrow and have 2nd docetaxol, and have a scan later this week. Really don’t want to be told, ‘well lets wait and see if this dose works’ and be in pain and growing a second head for another 3 weeks!
So suppose my questions, that I hope some of your experiences may be able to answer, are:
Has anyone had similar symptoms?
How was it treated?
Did it ‘work’ (ie shrink/stop/slow down) or none of the above?!
Any answers would be greatly appreciated.
Many thanks
Bex1