Elaine… yellow:)
Elaine… yellow:) Hi Elaine
Took your message off the other one.
I have been reading about your new adventure, taking the bull by the horns and going for that job, I was really proud of you. Then you lost your job, but don’t worry, another achievement will come your way. You are Elaine! One of our biggest inspirations on this site… Really you are … 
Did you know its St David’s day today and my friends in Swansea have filled their offices with Daffodils. I thought of you then, thinking yellow… I remember you changing the spectrum of your colours from darker ones to yellow and you will again…
Time is a mystery, yet also a journey, same as a colour is.
lol hands held high on the mammogram ! lol , all i did was laugh ! I had to be’ positioned’ I smiled til my face ached.
Haven’t read a lot about your grandsons, hope you are still making them laugh and wrapping them in your cuddles. I know you will be…
A note fom P … who cant post at the mo , she is OK, she has had her op and is doing OK, she wanted me to send you her love, she has been reading your stories.
So restore your Yellow Elaine, make some more ‘Jez’ mirror hugs and change those few weeps into smiles… lots of people are rooting for you!
All drains lead to the Ocean
Lots of love
Rach xx
Thank you so much Hi Rach
Thank you so much for your kind words…my flat is full of daffodils but the atmosphere is a little pale at the moment. After the job fell through I felt such a failure, tried so hard to prove that I could cope…felt like I had let my family friends and you lot down. The doctor was quite cross with me for going to work 40hrs a week only three days after rads finished…but eh i need the money…Went into deep depression and had to ring my councillor up for an emergency apt and spent the whole hour sobbing…felt emotionally drained but a little better…she said after the dx then marriage breakup having to find somewhere to live was a lot to handle and it was my body telling me to slow down…which was very hard, just thought if i just sat around and did nothing it would all fall to pieces…it did anyway…
Still see grandsons, went down last week to play board games with Callum…what a cheat he his…but his hugs cuddles and also saying he loved me so much meant the world to me…Going to pick him up from school this afternoon and spend some quality time with him so that is something to look forward to…
Glad Pat is OK send her my love and look forward to hearing from her soon, missed her and all of you so much…
Going to look for some yellow rays now ready to see my grandson and face the weekend.
Have a good day
Hope to speak to you soon
Hugs
Elainexx