Emotional and grateful!!!xxx

Aw Jencat, you have a cuddly panda bear stayinf. Hope he recovers soon.

Many of us were also told DCIS at first until the lump had been for biopsy and boy, yes that did take it out of me to be told differently Grade 2 Ductal invasive and one lymph node afftected which was taken out with Mr Blobby! I hit the whisky that day but not touched it since!!!

Distraction is good. Thats my way of coping.xx

Jencat, good that you have a new drug to try, we keep being told that treatment for bc is moving on fast and it is a well funded and researched area perhaps we just need to have faith, but some days it’s easier said than done x

 

Evening Lovelies!!

 

Sue, hope it’s not too nippy now you’ve braved the shave. CK, hope you’re still being a warrior and flying through chemo. Chaffinch and Jencat, I know it’s easy to say please don’t worry too much about your first chemo sesh but I felt exactly the same as you both are now. The wait and the last couple of days before my first sesh were excruciating. I just wanted to get it over with. You may be one of the lucky ones like me though. Apart from the chemo glow in the first couple of days and the ridiculously unkempt post cold cap hair, I’ve just carried on as normal and was in work the day after my first sesh. Even if you do have some rough side effects it’s still so worth it. Anything that stacks the cards in our favour…

 

By the way, the mad candy floss hair is still hanging on in there. Day 20!!! ???

 

Cherry Bakewell xx

Just put my pics on a new thread in I am recently diagnosed took ages to upload images so not putting them here too lol x
Love to you all xx

Hi everyone, thought I’d check in on you all and see how everyone is doing?

 

I’ve had an odd week, fourth chemo done, yey, however  we sadly had my uncle diagnosed with leukemia at the start of the week and yesterday my sisters father in law had a heart attack, so she is feeling a bit like something is out to get us at the moment bless her. 

 

Were all out for her birthday lunch today too, so hoping I’m not too gaggy  and nothing has happened to her fil over night.

 

Hope you are having a good week?

Hi Xena
Glad you popped up on here as forhot abput my Emotional and Grateful post!
So sorry to hear about your uncle and hope ge receives the best possible care.
You need to enjoy family day today.

Im still emotional after last weeks fundraiser for Prevent Breast Cancer and its reachd my target, nearly £2k. This will go towards helping our future generations! Im still little chemo dazed from cycle 3 but resting qhen I can.

Its just the dry mouth taste buds!!!

Hope all my lovely ladies are doing well.xxx

Can’t believe you are on your 3rd cycle CK - half way - well done !!!

Hi xenanice to see you as I forget who I have spoke to on which posts x hugs to you st this difficult time

Ck bloody btilliant x hold your head high girl another successful event to be proud of xx

CK you are one amazing person, in many more ways than one, from your amazing charity work down to the way you have helped me and countless others while also carrying your own bags, there are not words to express my own gratitude to you as your posts have helped keep me as sane as i was ever going to be during all this. Every single one of is allowed to and most of us do wobble, scream, shout and do what ever we need to do to help us on our journeys at times. Take care CK and a huge Thank You from me xxx

I’ll second that Peanut… wish I could be half as strong…your a legend CK! X

£2K ck that’s amazing, well done!

I posted on here as I knew everyone would be on here!!! I only tend to come on at the weekend as that’s when I have a bit of time to loaf about in the morning, so I struggle to keep up sometimes!

B***dy marvellous, CK ?
Fab achievement, especially as you’re in the middle of it all at the mo.
ann x

Seeing that this took me so long to write I am posting more than once:D

Ladies, thank you for your words of support for me and each other which really helps us get through tough times!

We all find ways of coping through life on the whole, never mind what we are going through now and the words of encouragement for each other on here really do help us.

Whether we cope by still working, raising for charity, donating time, exercising, eating habits, exercise or by simply offering words of comfort, we are all not just trying to get through this difficult time day by day but when I read the threads I cant help but realise what a bloody good bunch of ladies are on here sharing anything which may help someone else!

My diagnosis has really change my outlook on life! I worked hard for the past years non stop becaise I had to bring up my daughter, but now I have realised she is 20 and I need to concentrate on myself and my health and continue to fundraise in between, of course! This will never stop! It’s my way of motivating myself and using what I have to be able to help others have a better qualitly of life, but I will take it much more easier, do the organising and let others do the running about?

There is going ro me more me time in store and doing what I want to do for a change!

I used to worry about what people thought of me or how they judged me! Not anymore! Couldnt give a toss! I will do what I feel?

I dress up to look good and feel good for myself now! If anyone doesnt like what I wear, tough! But my self esteem and confidence isnt as high now which is what treatment has done to me, but what I do know is that it will come back!!!??

My tolerance with people has changed! I used to be very tolerant and give people and situations plenty of chances! Not anymore!

I had a ‘friend’ who we knew was a drama queen and couldnt control her drink but I would guide her and tell her if she was a laughing stock! She tried to turn my situation into her drama, tears, getting pissed, shouting and making a fool of herself but when I had it out with her she went very quiet and stayed away. I told her she didnt need to but just accept that she was wrong but no, she is so stubborn by the time she had realised how wrong she was and I’d given her 3 chances to see me it was too late! Im actually relieved her negativity isnt around anymore and hope she can sort her head out! But the last straw was when I was told by her sister that she made the family think for montbs thst she had ‘C’ for attention! How sad is this!!!

Then I sacked my date who decided to tell me he had depression when he found out about my diagnosis! Yet he was out til all hours getting sloshed and fit enough to do go to work, business meetings etc! I look back on things and realised he use to blame me for his abnormal behaviour after a drink!

And the last straw was when a gossiper(we all know for this) went to my hairdresser a couple of times to get information about me and actually said ’ My friend told me CK was ill!’ Has she been? Has she had her hair done? What did she have done? Reslly? Long? Short? Etc etc etc! My hairdresser was uncomfortable and told me…so I sent her a text to tell her to button it and if she wanted to know something why not ask me herself???She couldnt help herself, even if we didnt invite gossip she would just talk and put everyone down. Before this, I gave her excuses that she was unhappy but not anymore! Rid!!!

I dont know about you ladies but when I hear someone complaining about something trivial it really winds me up! Really, you are complaining about the floor being dirty and having to clean it again!!! Or you are really dying of a cold??? ITS A COLD!!! I know everyones problems are their own but…

Anyway I’ve told the mates(the ones left?) apart from my change with tolerance and patience I am still the determined, kind, generous lady who wants to be here for others too but beware…DO NOT PISS ME OFF( excuse my language???

Hope I’m not the only one feeling like this!!! I am noce really???

Hi lafies!
WE are amazing!!! And you are double amazing Lafy Bowler!!!

I will have numbers raisef for MacMillan and Prevent Breast Cancer shortly.

Hipe we are all coping well and doning wjat we can on our good days!

Lots of love.xxxxx

I was just catching up with my posts and reading through them again and again and yes, although its pants that I/we are going through all this, I am grsteful for the treatment I am receiving to mend me! The NHS has been amazing and theres help for us in many ways if we look for it!

Im just treating it as a bit of time out for myself where I am concentrating 100% on me! This has never hapoened in my life. Ive always put others first. Its a wake up call and I have been given a chance, so I need to make the most of it!

No ‘if onlys’ and ‘what ifs’!!! Find ways to make my treatment as manageable as possible and therapies to help my body both mentally and physically! And most of all, plenty of rest when I can!
Hope you all have a good Sunday.xxx

Morning Jencat and Lady Bowler
I hope you are both feeling good…and Colin too!

These dark nights don’t help even more so since we put the clock back, yet it makes it easier for us to stay in when we don’t like going out!

I met for a curry last night and everytime someone opened the door a draught came in and I couldnt wait to come home, change into my jimjams and stick the TV on! My, how I have changed!!!

In the morning the first thing I do is draw open rhe curtains and let the light in. Someone I know has their blinds closed all of the time and when I go round it depresses me.

I can’t have heating on all day either and don’t sleep with it on! Its very dry on my skin so stick ir on timer for 3 times a day.

Doing breathing exercises and breathing in rhe fresh air is soooo good!

What are you up to today?xxx

Glad you both had good days and PICC sorted and good meeting with onc and Helena with the ladies! I had a great night at work seeing people. Visit to Beechwood tomorrow and will have a complimentary aromatherapy massage. Cant wait!
Have a Psychic Night on Weds at work with 80 coming! Will have a raffle for Prevent Breast Cancer and then total up.

Hope tomorrows a nice day as last time I went to Beechwood it throwed it down.

Strawberroes and yoghurt before bed! Xxx

Jencat and Rosie
Hope the anti biotics do the job! Chemo in itself is difficult and we could without the setbacks but at least you are feeling bit better now.xxx

Hi Rosie
Ive had a few secret weeps this week and mostly because of how nice people are being extremely nice to me, people who I would never have thought would take the time for me! Our emotions are bound to be everywhere. I hold myself at work but then I might get in the car and the tears come out but then I tell myself to pull myself together and think of sometjing funny!
Even now Im still getting donations for MacMillan and Prevent Breast Cancer. My friend gave me £350 for a large signed Rooney photo frame but then told me to keep it and auction again:0 I cried!
My hairdresser sorted me anorher wig for free! I cried! Lately TV often makes me cry. But I do know a good cry does make me feel better apart from rhe swollen eyes? so let it out!!!xxx

Hi Jencat
Yes Herceptin Tuesday and cycle 4 Weds. Nervous as two treatments rjis week and not sure what to expect. Ive done a lot in the 2 good weeks so ready for resting up next week.
Hope you are doing well.xx