end of treatment and very emotional

I have only got 3 more rads to go then my treatment is finished. After spending 6 months of hospital appointments,chemo,surgery and now rads I feel more scared then when first diagnosed.I am triple negative,so no drugs for me.Someone said to me today, after next week everything will go back to normal.

I finish my rads this week,after six months of hospital appointments with chemo,surgery and rads.I feel so scared as I am triple negative,so no drugs for me.I feel more afraid now then when first told of BC.Someone said to me today that now everything can go back to normal. There is no normal anymore,and I so want normality.Worry about every single ache and pain, think it has travelled to my bones.Feel so drained of emotion,and just for good measure going through early menapause and my scars are very tight due to rads,sounds like I am feeling sorry for myself.Don’t mean to. Feel like I should be feeling better now and try to move on.keep thinking what if?

Hiya

I’m triple negative too and finished my rads 2 weeks ago. I know exactly what you mean about wanting to get back to normal. Normal for us this year has been surgery, hospital for chemo for 6 months, then hospital every day for rads - exhausting isn’t it? So what is normal now? I have decided not to go back to work until after Christmas as I wanted some ‘me’ time, where I could wake up feeling healthy and get out and about without having to worry about apointments. I’m now starting to dread going back to work as I don’t feel I’m the same person any more and will have missed a year out of the office (I’ll feel like the new girl again lol). I wouldn’t worry too much about being triple negative, there’s nothing we can do and we’ve had everything thrown at us to, hopefully, prevent it from coming back. To be honest, I try not to think about it and, if it does pop into my head, I think of something else. I’m still feeling a bit in limbo, it’s like ‘what do I do now’, it’s a weird feeling and I don’t think people understand if they haven’t experienced it themselves. You have been through surgery, 6 months of chemo and then rads and have come out the other side. If you can do all that, then you can do anything. You are a strong lady and will face whatever the future holds ‘head on’. Don’t be frightened, you’ve climbed a mountain and are now coming back down the other side and without a safety net you are bound to be a bit wobbly. No-one knows what is round the corner, but there are a lot of triple negatives out there who are still going strong years and years later - why should we be any different?

Big hugs darling, if you need me just yell.

Love Julie xxx

Hi Wooley,

I know that it is scary I am also triple neg and am sure I will feel exactly like you at the end of treatment, who knows when there will be a drug for us. You have been through so much over the last 6 mths and what is normal anyway. My sister said to me when I was down saying I want my old life back that it is the same life just a different path ( i liked the bloody old path as well). But stay positive they have zapped the bitch and there was no reason you should of got it and no reason it should return remember 75% of BC suffers now are OK and they will keep an eye on you. In some way although horrible treatment is a security blanket but you wont just be abandoned now.
Keep positive

Love

C

Hi Wooley

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Hi Wooley I am triple neg too.I finished treatment in June and am only now feeling almost’normal’.At least we dont have to worry about side effects of tamoxifen etc.Lots of +++ people have the same fears as us and,reading the forums,sadly some do go on to suffer recurrence or mets.We each have to manage our own bc knowing we have had the best available treatment dont let the fear take over just try to enjoy the lovely things and people in your life.Good luck,horace

I too am triple neg, i have just recently finished my treatment, it has been a long year of chemo and rads, at the moment i am feeling very down as i don’t know where i go from here. I have an appointment with my Oncologist in 2 weeks so i am hoping that everything will be explained to me.

I wish you all the very best.