Well i’ve done pretty well over the past 10 days waiting for my appointment at the breast cinic. Not long now as its a 9.30 Monday monring but feeling really worried now - have been so snappy at hubby and kids today and feel really guilty now. Day has been worse as hubby has tonsiitis so been looking after son & step kids + dog! Foolishly just tried to do hubbys tax return online and couldn’t even log on!! Nearly smashed the laptop!
Anyway sorry i am rambling now but thankyou for listening…! Roll on Monday and happy news.
hi, Yes the waiting is terrible, there have been lots of periods in my life when i have thought it was bad waiting to find things out. A levels (i will just die if i fail and dont get into uni) Sealed bids for a house (this is the only house in the whole of london for us and i dont know what i will do if we dont get it) results of a blood test for one of the kids.
But nothing compares to waiting for appointment and results for BC.
snappy-- well snappy is not bad. There have been some stories on here of complete melt downs and hurling pork pies at poor unsuspecting partners.
I thought i had handled the wait well, i thought i was in this happy serene cloud cuckoo land bubble. afterwards my son said that everyone was so worried about my because I looked so tense and scared. that was from the GP appointment right up to the op.
I am hooked to these threads, they are keeping me sane and the range of emotions people go through and different ways people go through waiting is amazing ( i try not to read the more serious threads headed chemo or secondaries)
So anyway one day for you to go. with children you are bound to be busy. What have you arranged to do monday night??
Hi Lucy, no good saying dont worry because we all do it. I really hope everything goes well for you tomorrow and you get the all clear there and then. Enjoy the lovely weather today and take care. K x
Those little Melton Mowbry’s don’t half move. Try it :o)
Hi Lucy
dont beat yourself up its normal how you are feeling … you want Monday here but in a way you want to rewind time when all this wasn’t happening. This is the worse part the tests & the waiting for results, I wish I had a magic wand to take it all away your emotions are going to be all over the place, just do whatever you need to get through each day as it comes (baby steps) try not to think ahead with the what ifs it just does your brain in. I found listening to relaxation & meditation CD’s my best friends during this time. Its easy to say throw yourself into lots of work to keep your mind active but I think reality says your mind goes crazy however busy you try to keep yourself & if you anything like me & probably lots here your very tired due to lack of sleep … food dont even taste good I remember it well
All the best
hugs
Mekala X
Thanks souch to all of you helps souch to know I’m not alone. I think my hubby and parents have been less cconcerned this time as I went through it all last year and it was a fibroadenoma. Hopefully that’s what it will be again but still can’t help worrying.
I’ll let you know how I get on. Hope you are all doing plans managed to enjoy the sunshine today.
Love
Lucy x x x
Lucy, fingers crossed that fibroadenomas have a tendency to repeat!
And elttiks, I hooted at your post.
Hello ladies,
Well i’m back from my appointment - they found one cyst which was drained yippee!! Then i said i could still feel the lump and low and behold there was another kidney bean shaped image on the u/s - the doctor tried to aspirate but unlike the cyst it wouldn’t drain and she struggles to get the needle in. She said she got a small amnount of bloody fluid and so has sent this to the lab. She um and ah’d about doing a core biopsy but decided to get these back first and then can always do a core if required. She was sure the area on the u/s looked smaller after she put the needle in but i don’t think it did - we’ll see. So looks quite positive although another week of waiting. I’m due back next Monday at 2.30pm. Does anyone know if its good or bad to get bloody fluid? I thought cysts drew off yellow fluid?
Thankyou for all your kind messages it really helped.
Lucy x
dont know what sort of fluid you are supposed to get out of cysts. But these radiologists are pretty good at their job, and if she thought it was realy dodgy looking she would have done a core biopsy there and then.
I went in with a cyst hoping the result was just that it had to be drained when oops one look at the image they did needle and core biopsies. yes it did turn out to be cancer, bit the rare sort that grows inside cysts and hopefully one that just needs a WLE and SNB. Hopefully no rads and almost definately no chemo. Hade the node result, all clear. will get result of what they found in the lump on thursday and hopefully on friday I will be saying a tearful and thankfull good bye to everybody here.
The helpline might help you with what different fluids might be in a cyst and what they would mean. or someone else might come along that had blood from their cyst.
Hi Lucy so pleased you have that part over Ive no idea what fliuds are meant to come from a cyst but I can tell you that they thought mine was a fibro cyst it moved had smooth edges & was a soft round lump I originally had a needle aspiration as it was easier as it was so small NO fluid came from mine as far as I know & I was called back for a biopsy as the aspiration came back with abnormal cells AGAIN that doesn’t always mean cancer. I was quite angry at the time when I was called back I asked why they didn’t do core biopsy 1st time round to be told it was so small they still had a job getting biopsy from it.
Keeping everything crossed for you that these are just cysts.
Hugs
Mekala x
Hi OAL thats practically what they said mine was but still having rads I think it depends on what grade & stage it is.
Hopefully Lucy’s is just a cyst … one step at time Lucy dont even think that far ahead yet & yes as OAL said give the helpline a ring
xxx
mmm your cyst was so small that they could not do a biopsy and you still needed rads?? mine is 1.5cm. Thats food for thought isnt it. And i was so posative that i was going to be signed off on Thursday.
Did not need to read that—serves me right for following these threads, maganged to knock my optomism a little and allow some doubt to creep in.
Thankyou both! From the scans she seemed so sure it was a cyst and was quite surprised when she couldn’t get the needle in. After much pushing she got it in but really struggled to get anything back. I know I need to stop analysing and just wait till next week but it’s so hard!
OAL don’t lose your optimism I will keep everything crossed fir you x x x
thanks for that. A couple of hours and several glasses of wine later and all doubts have fled, how dare they blight my night. Every cancer is different and mine is going to be all on the labs slab and be nothing to do with me anymore.
Feeling totally posative and up beat again. I am allowed to drive tomorrow and i will go up and tickle the drums ready for when they say I can start bashing hell out of them again.
OAL I did have a biopsy 2nd time round … they had to as the needle aspiration came back with ‘some’ abnormal cells so they had to get a bigger chunk to get a clearer picture of what it was
Hi Lucy just to wish you well for your results, not sure which day you get them but hope all ok. K x