Feeling blue
Feeling blue hi
Had first mammogram after treatment, and usual clinic visit ( 10 mins to say feeling well and everything is fine) At mammogram ask to go back in as one of the flims was too dark and they needed to be lighter. Now irrational thoughts, did they find something ,has cancer come back in my other breast and have 4-6 week wait to get result. I’m trying to be positive, but feel a bit low, after feeling I was getting my life back on track. I know I’m beening stupid and have a lot to be positive about, but that small doubt is there. Has anyone else felt this way?
Izzy
Don’t worry Had a similar thing with my first mammogram after treatment, radiographer wanted to retake on the good side, i asked if there was anything wrong and she said no its just with the first mammogram after treatment they like to get as clear a picture as possible as all they have to compare with is the one pre surgery.
i actually rang my breast care nurse for results after 2 weeks or less, as i couldn’t cope with the worry.
its not being stupid to think like this, in fact i think its quite normal after what we’ve been through/are still going through.
so don’t worry your not alone.
take care
karen
Mammogram Hi Izzy
My first mammogram is in May and will know I will have the same doubts as you. Why is it we all think we are stupid when we feel low I always feel the same when I feel down we seem to have this thing about beating ourselves up when we have been through so much.Like you I try to be positive but it is very hard at times. Chin up I am sure your results will be fine but if like me you will find something else to worry about!
JanetS
I don’t think you should accuse yourself of being stupid. After everything you’ve been through already it seems like a perfectly normal response! 
It’s six months since I finished my treatment and I still quake at every little twinge - every ache. But my breastcare nurse told me that she expected to hear from me regularly - having panics. And that that was OK - that’s what happens to many people. And I just think: why wouldn’t I be scared? And it’s how I feel: and feelings just *are* - they aren’t stupid or sensible - they’re primitive.
I won’t tell you that everything will be OK - you know that I can’t know that. I can’t know it about myself but all I can say is: roll with it. Be scared if you’re scared but the fact that you’ve come as far as you have means that you have the ability to deal with whatever happens. And whatever the result of the mammogram is, it’s being dealt with - they’re keeping a really close eye on you and you can’t be in a better position than that.
I just tell myself that “I get to win this - I won’t be beaten”. I’m not a victim or a survivor - I’m a winner.
Be sad when you’re sad; be scared when you’re scared but try to remember that at the moment your reactions are skewed by what’s already happened. Not everything is going to be bad and this really could be a case of them not having done a good enough job. A problem with them not you.
Emily
Hi
just to say thanks for the replies and support. At present feeling a bit more positive and concentrating on other things. Hope the next weeks fly pass and I will look back and wonder why I felt that way.
Izzy