I just feel cross. I miss my breast more than ever and it has been nearly 5 years now! I hate how BC has messed with my brain. I went swimming today, and all i could focus on, was how NONE of the women had any scars going across their back and how everything looked ‘normal’ Just when i think i am done with grieving over my pre BC body, i get hit with a wave of sadness and pain. So sick of it all now, i just wish it had never bloody happened to me and to some fat unheatlhy smoke instead!
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Also here’s the link to the area of this website where the impact of BC is discussed further.
Hi Naz, I read your post earlier and have been thinking about what you have said. I too have days like yourself,when I see really large ladies and I think it’s not fair! I have always looked after my weight and have never smoked and eaten a healthy diet! I returned to the gym last week for the first time after 18 months, I had a lumpectomy,stage 3 hert2 er+. I saw it as a small achievement in my recovery. I try to tell myself that all the women I see may have had some kind of health problem, or are going to! There will be women I see that may have already been through this, or may go through it, we just don’t know peoples circumstances! I know it’s really difficult but ,hey,you are still here, and well done for being confident enough to go swimming! This is how I’m trying to deal with it, I hope it helps a little.
Hey naz I was a similar time to you my 5 years in dec. I sometimes wonder what is wrong with me to still b like this nearly 5 years after when some people seem to just move on
I had a lumpectomy so luckily didn’t loose my breast but I have constant aches and pains in it which prevents normal ( whatever that was ) and looks diffrent I wish I wasn’t scared of it coming back iv lost so many loved ones to some sort of cancer but like you some days seem harder than before
You sound like a lovely person and you have every right to be angry I guess we don’t have a choice anyway but I know I am so grateful to be still here Go get yourself a fab dress and put your lipsy on and hold your head up high !! You are a fighter and just going through what we have makes us amazing !!! X