I have my first appt at the breast clinic tomorrow. I’ve been lucky in that I have only had to wait a week for my appt and I have been keeping myself busy to keep myself distracted but today, I am nearly bent double with anxiety. I can’t leave the stupid lump alone and keep checking to see if by magic it has disappeared but it hasn’t.
I have read quite a few posts about what some of the ladies have been through on here and I’m in this state when I haven’t even been dx-ed yet?!
Feel so pathetic 
Don’t feel bad, it’s natural to feel like this. Stop giving yourself a hard time.
It’s when we don’t know what’s going on it’s the worst thing and we worry about everything.
Just remember your not alone on here, as you have helped me with your posts, I hope this helps you abit
REMEMBER YOUR NOT PATHETIC!!! YOUR HUMAN!
Take CareXXXX
Thank you Michelle for your lovely reassurance when I know that you are nervous as well.
I’m going to go upstairs, put some feel good music on and do some ironing - that should keep me busy for a while!
Debs xxxx
I’m doing the same, keep checking, yup it’s still there… I’m so up and down. It isn’t pathetic it’s natural to worry. I had a major freak out on Monday, have calmed down now but it’s so difficult to think off anything else isn’t it.
best wishes for you tomorrow, I hope it’s better news than you’ve been preparing for. My turn on Friday x
Hi Leanne
Me too - up and down, thinking it won’t be anything serious one minute and then thinking the worst the next.
So sorry that you are going through this too. I can manage to distract myself for a while but then I find myself checking it again.
Thank you so much for your best wishes for tomorrow and I am returning them to you for your appt on Friday.
Debs
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Oh you poor love…you’re not pathetic at all you’re just anxious and it’s perfectly normal…finding a lump is a hideous situation to be in and waiting to go to the clinic is just the pits…I was dx last year and between finding my lump and going to be dx I cried a lake of tears…it’s a wonder my husband didn’t need a swimming boulie…this is from the woman who never panics at anything…glass is always half full etc…I am that laid back normally I’m almost horizontal…I found my lump and went a bit loopy for almost 6 weeks until the surgeon removed it…even then I’m not back to normal…well my normal…yet…I also progged and poked my lump and made it even more sore than it was!!!..you are just a human lady that is in a bit of turmoil…be kind to yourself…I wish you all the best at your appt and the door to freedom is opened to you…also you leanne…the same for you for friday…Maggie
Hi Maggie
Thank you for your lovely and understanding post. The wierd thing is that I can’t cry, it all seems to be stuck inside me. I wish I could have done at some point over the last week to release some of the emotion.
Thank you for wishing me all the best for today as well. 
My appt is at 2pm and so I am going to spend the morning pampering myself and then I will be going to meet my partner at the train station and we will go to the hospital from there.
Not long to go now!!
Debs
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Best of luck for you today, fingers and toes crossed and lots of hugs xx
Good Luck ladies …sending BIG hugs:) xx
Thank you so much Katytc and kate40club - the good luck wishes are very much appreciated and mean a lot.
Debs
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Good Luck today Catsmother and for Leanne tomorrow, thinking of you bothXXXX
wishin u all the luck in the world keepin everythig crossed 4 u hope sooooooo much u get good news n that u dont have to join us on here. but… if u do have to everyon on here r a great support i was diagnosed 2 weeks ago after a 4 week wait i had op on tue 9th to remove first lymphnode n they r gonna rush the results through as iv been booked in mon 15thoct 4 mast n diep flap recon then im gonn need radio n chemo.everyone on here says the waitin room is the worst part n b4 i had results my head was all over the place but as soon as i had the results i was strangley ok op on tue went fine n im not in any pain so bring on mon.sendin hugs x
sue x
Hope everything goes well for you today Debs and for you on Friday Leanne_xoxo
Its the worst feeling not knowing what it is and what they are going to tell you.
We have all been there and its not pleasant. I actually felt better once I knew what it was as I could understand what needed to happen to get rid of my lump, hopefully your diagnosis will be non Cancer related.
Good luck and take care
Karen
Thank you so much Michelle, Sue and Karen. Your words of support are really helping me
Debs
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good luck to you all and your certainly not pathetic,we all cope in different ways,hope it all goes well,
Di.x
hi
how did it go today wen do u get results hope u dont have to wait too long x
sue x
I’m new to this, been reading the posts for a few days and trying to pluck up the courage to write down my worst fears.
I have found a small lump in my left breast and have been referred by my GP to the Hospital Breast Clinic on Monday 15th.
I am doubled over with fear - sometimes I can’t breath.
My biggest fear is leaving my daughter, who is 13. Since I found the lump, my daughter is all I can think about.
I haven’t been diagnosed yet, but am just fearing the worst I think.
Hi Sara Wag where are you going? Your not leaving your daughter your just dealing with an illness and as any illness there are treatments. Stop panicking you might not have BC and if ou do there are a whole medical team at your beck and call to sort you out and get rid on it. Take one day at a time, try not to worry and believe me I know that one is difficult. The 15th is days away, focus on normal family time and don’t think about it till you are actually at your appointment. Take someone with you for support. Remember many lumps are benign, I have had several cysts drained over the years. X
Hi Sarawag
So sorry to hear your news its the worst time for you ‘the not knowing’ and the waiting and the thinking and then the thinking about thinking!! ARGGG !! your not on your own and you have come to the right place for some support while you need it…this site is amazing and your questions will always be answered…I would just like to wish you all the best and hope everything is good for you!!
sending a BIG cyber hug
Kate x
hi sarahwag
sendin u a great big hug
u r feeling exactly the same as everyone else my kids r 5,6,n 8 n the fear of not seeing them grow up was the worst feelin ever its the not knowing everyone on here will tell u the not knowing is the worst part as u dont no wat to expect so have nothing to focus on i was UNUSUALLY 4 weeks waiting 4 my results after been told it looked verry much like breast cancer i got the results i was expecting 2 weeks ago n now im feelin ok i had sentinal node biop on tue they r rushing these resultst through as theyv booked me in 4 mastectomy n diep flap recon on mon 15th oct so at last things r moving fast n im feelin ok about the op n once its over n im recovering i can consentrate on the next stage… radio n chemo hope so much u get GOOD news n dont have to join us on here BUT… if u do have to join us try n stay possitive u will get great support on here even if u just need a rant to let off steam everyone will understand wat u feeling/going through u will kick its arse dont google u will only scare yr self stick to this site n mcmillan also great 4 support will b thinkin about u on mon let us no how u get on hope u get fast GOOD results sending u all the luck in the world big hugs x
sue x