Don’t no wots wrong with me today feeling so low been blubbing like an idiot all day day 5 of rads went on my own today as don’t want to be round people came home been in bed ever since phone switched off - stop the world I wanna get off - I’m over the worst so why am I feeling like this ?
Jojums
Oh mate it is the whole thing of travelling to and from the hospital everyday, it is totally natural honestly. I remember about day 7 I went for my session and I had woken up in a bad mood, the nurse asked me how I was, well the flood gates opened, I dont want to do this anymore, I have had enough I dont like being controlled by this one appointment, I want my life back!!! She just put her arm around me, handed me a box of tissues and let me sob. We then got on with the session.
Just give into it today and tomorrow is another day my dear, sending you a gentle virtual hug
Helena xxxx
Thank you Helena it’s good to no how I’m feeling is normal xx
How are you feeling today Jojums? X
Hi Jojum, I too had my 5th session yesterday and feel rubbish. I keep getting told the Rads side effects wont kick in till session 14ish but I am knackered, ache all over and feel so heavy.
Can I ask if you are on Tamoxifan? I only ask as I have started on that and whilst I haven’t suffered most of the side effects listed, it really messed around with my hormones and moods. To the point that my doctor has now put me on anti depressents temporarily until my body adjusts as I was so low and couldn’t stop crying all the time but half the time had no idea why I was crying.
Hope you’re feeling better today x
Hi mamma-bear that’s exactly how I’m feeling I knew id start to feel rubbish at some stage just didn’t expect it to be so soon - part of my problem is I’m not sleeping last night I literally watch the clock go round I’m surviving on less than two hours a night and have been for the past two weeks - I’m large chested and I feel so top heavy it’s uncomfortable I’m not getting flushes as such but am always boiling does that make sense - I’m not taking tamoxifen yet apparently I will start it wen rads are finally finished - I knew this wasn’t going to be an easy journey and on the whole I think I’ve handled it quite well but this week has knocked the stuffing out of me - I hope we both start to feel better soon xxxx
Hi ollybobs - pretty much the same as yesterday but today I did manage to force myself into the shower xx
Hope you continue to improve. I have my planning meeting tomorrow so should get a start date. Will check in again tomorrow to see how you are doing xx
Hi Jojums ,hope you are feeling better .I found I had a real plummet in the first week of rads.Some of it was the feeling of being trapped -i.e. had no choice but to go to hospital and be faced with the fact I had cancer every ****** day.Jill.
Hi everyone another down day yesterday but today I feel a lot more positive today I think it’s because I managed to get a relatively decent nights sleep ?Jill I think you’ve hit the nail on the head i realise it’s the loss of control that is hitting me most hardest - thank you everyone for kind words and support - joanne xxx
Glad you feeling a bit better Jo -the lack of sleep certainly doesn’t help.