((hugs)) i’m sorry you are under such stress at home. It must be very difficult to gather your energies.
take good care of yourself… but don’t forget yourself 
((hugs))
you are so giving… Hi,
Thanks for the supporting words. You are such an amazing woman! I have just read your profile and what I am going through here is nothing compared to the journey you have made, and are still making. To still find room inside to respond to my little moan makes me feel very humble. I return a big hug to you and thankyou again.
I am a fighter who doesn’t give in. I may have just had a bit of a ‘blip’ but I will be fine…even if the news is bad. Women like yourself make me feel stronger to cope with whatever comes along.
Take care of yourself.
Kindest Regards,
Cathy
I had mine removed last week! Dear Ladies
I am 27 and had my fibroadenoma removed last week under general anaesthetic. Apart from the expected grogginess I am doing well. I had 4 days off work, but I’m back now, albeit at a slower pace!
I have taken a great deal of strength from all your entries it is good to know that there are other people out there, with the same worries and concerns about the same thing. Even though this is a benign condition, any lump in the breast area is terrifying.
I have a 2-inch cut, but internal stiching. I am told this will leave only a thin white scar, which will fade over time. Despite the location of the lump, my surgeon has done a great job cutting within my bra/bikini line.
I just wanted to let you all know about my positive experience and would be happy to discuss this further with anyone.
Great news! Hi Caroline,
I am so happy for you, and your boyfriend, that things have turned out wonderfully for you both. You have been through such a worrying time. I’m an Aussie and was born in Sydney so say hello to the great city for me!
I am looking forward to having my lump removed as I worry about it quietly and would just like to put my mind at rest. There is a family history of BC so I don’t want to tempt fate.
It must be a load of your mind and the news about your boyfriend is just wonderful. Go and enjoy a great city knowing that you are both going to be ok.
Take care both of you and I feel more positive about getting mine removed.
Let me know how your results go.
Can you go an have a lamington for me?!!
Cathy
Hello from Sydney Hi Cathy
Thanks for your message, I got my results yesterday and my lump was 100% benign on removal!!! We are thrilled. I have a smaller fibroadenoma and three cysts in the same breast, which I will have checked again in 1 year, but these had not changed between my two ultrasounds, so are ok to be monitored.
My thoughts are with you though. I’m sure January seems like an eternity away, but it will come around soon and then you can put this experience behind you.
It’s raining in Sydney today (much needed). How strange that we have “swapped” homes and are going through the same thing.
How have you been?
Do take care and keep in touch, I will look out for more postings from you.
Caroline
Gidday Sydney! Hi Caroline,
I am so, so happy your results were benign! You two need to go out and celebrate big time!
I never want to wish time away but I must admit I would like January to come around a bit quicker than normal this year. I just need peace of mind so I can focus on other issues that are going on. I’m sure everything will be fine but it’s the ‘not knowing’ that nibbles away at you even though you think you have put it to the back of your mind. Everytime it hurts or I look in the mirror and see one lower than the other the ‘is it or isn’t it’ thought comes in. Still, they say patience is a virtue!!!
Glad to hear it’s raining in Sydney. You guys have had such a dry few years. I used to live in Bayview Heights when I was a kid, and I can remember a few times when the bush fires came down to Terry Hills and we had to leave the house. It is a magnificent English autumn day here. White frost everywhere, brilliant sunshine, clear skies and -3 degrees!!
How long have you been in Sydney and where in Sydney are you?
Once again, fab news and you both take care. I’ll look our for your postings.
Cathy
Long silence Hi Cathy
Sorry for the long silence, I have been slowing building up to full speed again following the op, and so have had to catch up on a few things.
We did celebrate my results! But are also looking forward to 2007, this has been one tough year for both of us!
You are sounding so strong and I don’t know if I would be, were I in your shoes. I know that you have gotten used to the Jan date for the doc’s but is there no way of bringing your appointment forward?
We are in Springwood, in the Blue Mountains, but I work in Sydney - I must love rail travel!! I’ve been here almost 2 years to the day, and living in Springwood for about 18 months. I met my boyfriend about 3 months after I arrived here on a 5 month trip!!!
Having a late lunch today and think that I will buy a Good Luck Lamington in your honour!
Thinking of you often.
Take care.
Caroline x
gidday! Hi Caroline,
Firstly, thanks for the lamington!! Was it a good one?
Just don’t over do the 'catching - up with things ’ bit. Be kind to yourself! I wish nothing but the best life has to offer for you, and your boyfriend in 2007…you both deserve it!
I am feeling a bit worried today as my appointment has been brought forward to tomorrow instead of January!! I got a call from the consultants rooms on Tuesday saying he wants me in on Monday. I am trying to remain philosophical (?) and positive about the drastic change in plans as it could be for all sorts of reasons…it’s natural in this situation to jump to the wrong conclusion as your emotions are all over the place. Physically, things have changed since my April mammo. The pain is continuous and the breast, with the lump in it, has dropped. I also have pain under my arm. Having a family history og BC I am a bit worried.
Hang on, I can say how I really feel here…I am so frightened !!!***about what tomorrow may bring. Not so much for me but I’m worried sick about how my husband will deal with it if it is bad news. Life is such a rollercoaster here I don’t want to add to his state ( bad bi-polar depression). I am going to the consultant by myself tomorrow as it’s the ‘right’ way for me. If it’s going to be bad news then I need time to get my head around it a bit before I tell my husband. I need to be able to help him through it.
Anyway, it’s all probably going to be fine and this fear will go.
Wonderful sunny winters day here. Hope you are still getting some rain over there.
Take Care and I’ll let you know what happens.
LOL
Cxx
Hi there,
Sorry for the long silence.
Just wanted to say good luck for tomorrow. I will be thinking of you. Hope all goes well. I think the waiting is the hardest part, so at least your long wait is almost over!!
Let us know how you get on. You are an amazing woman, so stay strong and keep your chin up!!
Lots of love and hugs.
Tracy
Thinking of you posted on 20.11.06 5:20 am
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Dear Cathy
How are you? Thinking about you and your husband lots.
Good to see your doctor sooner, but scary at the same time.
Will check every day to see how you are, so get in touch in your own time.
Big Hugs
Caroline x
Caroline - I have had to amend your post as BCC do not display personal e-mail addresses. Sorry.
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thank you… Hi Tracy,
Thanks so much for the post, I really appreciated it. My appointment is in 1 hour so all shall be revealed! I don’t think of myself as being amazing but thank you. There are some really amazing women using this forum who I have such respect for. My problems are small compared to theirs, they are the amazing ones.
Have just hoovered for the 3rd time today!! Guess I’m a bit nervous…definitely not obsessively houseproud!! Am determined to stay positive but open minded. I can handle whatever happens but , as you know, someone close to me can’t so I am hoping above all hopes that the news is good. Still, whatever happens will happen and I will cope! I don’t mean to sound like a matryr, I am just being realistic…have to be eh!!!
Will let you know how it goes and thanks so much for your support. It helps so much to know I can talk honestly without having to be careful what I say. I always have to click the delete history button though when I am finished…just in case.
What about you? How are you doing at the moment?
Take care and the hugs were just what I needed, ta!
LOL
Cathy
Cathy update… Hi Tracy and everyone else who has been there for me ,
BC dr was a breath of fresh air! He was human, he listened to what I said and was genuinely interested in what I had to say, he was gentle, respectful, aware of my fears , made me feel confident in his ability, and he was totally honest with me…no patronising. All of these qualities were found in a little chap, early 60’s who looked a bit like a penguin!! I think it was his total respect of me, my freelings and the fact that he ‘looked’ at me when he spoke to me rather than at his notes like some of them do.
Anyway, he wants the lump out as soon as possible and he wants another biopsy done.( he feels a core biopsy should have been done rather than a fna and he was honest with me and said he will feel better if a full excision biopsy is done.He will do this as soon as he removes the lump. I have to have another ultrasound done just before I go into theatre because the lump is in a really difficult position and they have to ‘kebab’ it! They are going to insert a metal skewer thing into the lump and leave it sticking outside my boob ( hope I can use that word?!). This will allow him to get at the lump straight away.
He also said I was now a member of the ‘high risk’ club due to the family history, the starting of the menopause in my mid 30’s and the fact that I didn’t breast feed for very long ( wanted to but milk stopped after 3 weeks ).
All in all I came away feeling relieved that something was being done, the lump was going and it ended up in a calm day rather than the nightmare I thought may happen.
Can I just say to you and all the rest of you a big thanks for being there for me. I couldn’t let on my real feelings here at home so you all gave me a place to do that. I really do appreciate your kindness.
I sat in the lounge room when everyone had gone to bed last night and just cried my eyes out. It had nothing to do with what the doctor said it was the fact that everything was calm and I had prepared myself for ‘hell’ at home. I sometimes think that people don’t realise how much effort they are putting into trying to be strong until they don’t have to be for a while.
Anyway, thank you all for being who you are…very special people.
I will stay in touch as I want to be there to support the rest of you the way you supported me.
Take Care.
LOL
Cxx.
I’m so pleased for you! Hi Cathy,
I am so pleased for you that everything went well yesteday, and you had a positive experience. You are lucky to have a consultant you feel completely at ease with, and he sounds really professional. That makes all the difference.
The skewering procedure sounds interesting… must say it’s the first time I’ve heard of that.
I’m glad you are happy with the consultant’s decision to remove the lump. Do you have a date for your surgery?
Anyway, it’s good to hear how postive you are feeling. Let us know if you hear anything else. Will be thinking of you!
Love and hugs
Tracy
Great news! Great news Cathy!
Have been thinking about you. Glad that you are going to have the lump out and that your surgeon is able to support you in all the ways you describe, that is very important.
We are all here for you and wishing you all the best for the next stage.
I understand the crying, I have been there too. It is important though, to have a release of emotions.
Take care of yourself and keep in touch.
Caroline x
first date in… Hi !
Quick update as things here are a bit heavy at the moment. Pre-op assessment date has come through this morning and it’s for this Thursday! Because they take pre-op bloods I am guessing the op will be in the next two weeks or so!
Just want it over as I’m finding it increasingly hard to stay cool with it all and deal with home at the same time.
My ‘armour’ is starting to show a few chinks in it at the moment. Can’t afford to let my guard down at the moment so I hope the op date comes through soon.
Don’t mean to moan just having a bad day!
I’m off to look after my brother in laws little baby for 3 days as mum is going in to have a tumor removed from one of her parathyroid glands in the neck. Little baby has Brittle Bone disease so it’s going to be pretty heavy there as well. Still, no time to feel sorry for myself which is good will just need new everyready batteries put in me after all this!!!
How are you and your man doing?
Take Care.
Cathy x