Diagnosed yesterday. I could see from the breast nurses face that it was not going to be all good news. Woke up this morning and my first thought was “god I do have cancer after all” But feel strangely energised. I had not realised how numb I have been over the last couple of weeks and the long list of jobs I have ignored, so its going to be a busy day!!!
–book to get my eyebrows tattooed, I lost them cos of thyroid deficeincey and they need touching up. the sent me a reminder last week and i have done nothing about it
–book to get my hair cut, its down over my eyes, its in my diary to book for a trim but I ignored that entry for some reason
–sort my holiday train tickets out, now I know when my op is i can firm up the family holiday
—pot up the bedding plants, i have got hundreds outgrowing their roots that i seem to have ignored, at least I have kept them watered, why did i not pot them on—wierd way ones mind works.
—get some good drum practice in, next weeks gig will be the last for some time and I want to be on top form. I have been going to the studio but more pottered around than get any serious work done
—book to see my accupunture bloke, I sent him an email yesterday and he replied this morning saying there is lots he can do to help me prepare for surgery so that i heal quicker, and of course if the worse comes to the worse and I need more treatment he said he can help with the side effect.
----email friends. Have decided a good well worded email is the best way to tell people, it is after all a good sort of cancer I have (so far as the docs know at the moment) A bit blunt, but better than phone calls, then they can see all the facts and absorb it before responding.
—tell my band at rehearsal tonight, poor lambs what do young lads know about breast cancer and how to react, its going to be a shock for them no matter how much I bang on about the probable outcome. I might not mention the big C word, just say I have a cyst that needs to come out. I dont like not being truthfull but that might be better unless they start asking the right questions.
Gosh I am going to be busy. Back in the saddle!! Onward and upward. Etc,etc.
This is the first day of the rest of my life, so lets get on with it.