Mmm, Jacqui, that’s exactly how I’m beginning to feel now - that I either simply bypass my GP altogether and go straight to the local walk in centre - or that I change my surgery altogether. But its an additional trouble we could all well do without. I know I am on edge - and so I know I am perhaps sometimes a little abrupt - but I am also in pain - physically as well as psychologically - strangely, while I am still really recovering from the surgery the pain emanating from my wisdom teeth/ulcers/throat is more painful. You did manage to get a course of antibiotics, I hope? I hope too that they are doing the trick. I’m on a mission myself now to see if I can’t get something a little stronger than just mouthwash! I know that this is more than just inflammation - as my ears are hurting too - but I just don’t like the prospect of waiting to see someone, never mind establishing who it is I need to see in the first place!
I’m rambling now - I hope that your next dose of chemo goes smoothly - I’m one week ahead of you - had my first on 5 March - and next one due on 26th, next Wednesday, all being well!
All the best
Naz
I agree with your comment re pain related to mouth taking precedence over surgery. My OH and I were only saying the other day that whilst surgery was 8 weeks ago now it seems to have paled into insignificance with everything else going on over the last couple of weeks. Yes I am on Pencillin but its been over 4 days now and even though it is better it is still painful but now spreading to other areas of my mouth. My teeth/gums are also ultra sensitive now. Have bought the soft toothbrush and sensitive toothpaste but not making any difference. Also had 2 previous surgeries on previous gum infections which were fine but guess what, even that has started a gentle throb. I know what it is like to have an ulcerated throat having experienced them before and it does affect your ears too!
Only managed to get 4 hours sleep last night as the phone woke me at 8.20am! A call for my daughter who is in Australia! Wasn’t best pleased as was then unable to get back to sleep so tired and grumpy today. No wonder my OH and son have gone out for the day! lol Daughter rang later this morning from Oz and she didnt get a very good reception so she hung up on me! Sent her a ranting txt and feel so much better now! All is quiet on the home front now… lovely.
Not looking forward to my next chemo session, wondering what else this will bring. Suppose the hair loss bit is the next thing to contend with and as I have said on previous links I am so dreading it, get into a state just thinking about it.
Saw that lady athlete on tv last night who recently died with breast cancer (sorry cant remember her name right now!) which I found upsetting watching video footage
of her with her family. Think this was playing on my mind when I went to bed which made me teary and unable to sleep. I hear and read there does come a point somewhere along this ‘journey’ that you learn to live life again and are able to put all this to the back of your mind. Can’t wait for that day to come!
Just read this back and it sounds all gloom and doom but guess that is reflecting the mood I am in right now and the fact I am extremely tired!
Roll on the good times
Jacqui x
Roll on the good times? I’ll drink to that!
Sleep deprivation does tend to make you ‘tetchy’ doesn’t it - or it at least it would appear so with me. I got really irritated at the beginning of this week because I was getting a phonecall every day from my various members of my family to such an extent that it was tiring me out explaining to everybody how I was feeling!
I’ve just returned from the walk-in-centre - the doctor assured me that I haven’t got an infection - which makes me feel as if I am wasting everybody’s time not to say that I am paranoid and clearly a hypochondriac - but still my gums are swollen and my back teeth are just throbbing and it is agony! They say that because I don’t have a temperature I don’t have an infection either and that I should just continue to take the pain killers. They said that there was no point in doing a blood test because it is inevitable that my blood count will be low anyway. Ah well, I should have more faith in them - I do trust them - its just that it is so painful…! I am so pathetic - and, of course, my hair is beginning to fall out now too…! But the way I’m looking at it is that when it regrows it just may grow back my natural colour - and not the grey it is at the moment!
Hard to look on the bright side sometimes - I didn’t think your post was all ‘doom and gloom’ at all - everything that you’ve written shows that you have a sense of humour instead - but look on the bright side we should - its Easter and, therefore, potentially lots of chocolate - even if we may have trouble eating it at the moment.
And I’ve just had a phonecall from a friend of mine - who lives in the South - I live in the Midlands and has come to visit me today on the spur of the moment - which is great - so I better just try and make myself a little presentable.
All the best, love, Naz