good news but feel bad
good news but feel bad i recently had a mastectomy after an initial diagnosis in March, thankfully i have now been told i will need no further treatment other than a prescription for tamoxafen, all around me are elated except me! I can’t understand why i feel this way and feel abit lost although i have been told by the hospital if i am worried at all to contact them i suddenly feel very alone as i am still trying to come to terms with what has happened and when i try to tell people how i feel they seem surprised.
Hi Linlin,
I think it is normal how you are feeling, first you have just been through an operation, none of us here wanted to go through, and then all of a sudden you are left to fend for yourself, i can understand how you are feeling, i finished treatment (WLE and ANS, and then 15 sessions rads, tamoxifen), and i to feel alone, i have so many aches and pains now, and really paranoid its more than aches and pains, but after reading threads on this site, i find its quite normal to feel this way.
People think when we have had our ops and all treatment has finished, that life gets back to normal, it cant we are living in fear now for the rest of our lives wondering if this thing is going to come back, i look at my partner, he has been wonderful through out all this, and now looks at me enough to say, get on with it, its gone, but in my head it hasnt, so it does take time for us to recover from this, i am sure you will gets lots of replies, keep you chin up you will get through this. Your feelings are normal.
karen
Hi linlin I had WLE and axillary clearance Jan 2005, I didn’t need chemo, I had radiotherapy which ended end of April last year and am on tamoxifen. Finishing radiotherapy was a real low for me, all my friends thought that that was it and I should be celebrating - the trouble was my head was months and months behind my body. I think we are so busy initially dealing with the shock, the ops, the recovery and any treatments that we just don’t have time to get our heads round it - that comes later.
A year and 4 months down the line I think I am just about starting to come to terms with it - as much as you do - but I have good days and bad days - just less of the bad ones.
What you are feeling is perfectly normal - you will get a lot of support from this site.
Very best wishes
bjj
Hello linlin, I also had a mastectomy in April and have been told I don’t need any treatment apart from tamoxifen. Like you I just feel so down and alone. That was my fifth op in six months but people seem to think I should be so happy now. I’m not. Hopefully it won’t come back but that worry is always there at the back of my mind. Only have to see my surgeon every six months. While I was going regularly to hospital I felt safe and protected. Now, I feel all alone.
We will probably start to feel better but it will take a while.
xx