I just need to let rip on here for a bit so sorry! I have my appointment tomorrow and I dont know what to feel or think!
I have waited so long for it and now its finally here I am all over the place!
I want to get angry that Im even in this place right now and them I am scared that it is bc or that they are just going to send me away with no answers. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr I hate being me right now lol I have to laugh at myself for getting so uptight!
My poor hubby keeps telling me to talk to him and to shout at him if needed but I cant as I know he dosent understand just how bad and hard this is for me. Oh my god what am I going to be like tomorrow if they tell me it is bc? will i be happy that it is and at least I know now or will I freak out!!!
hugs to all
nikki
xx
Hi Nikki
I said on the other thread (Juliets) Good luck for tomorrow.
At least you are at your next step and dont have to wait much longer. Im sure you would rather be here than where you were last week. I really feel for you I was exactly the same as you last year. Hopefully they wont find anything but you know that even if they do you have all the wonderful women on here to help you through. You will get through this, good news or bad. I know how scarey it is, all sorts of things went through my head I know that.
I hope everything goes ok tomorrow, dont worry about freaking out, Im sure they are used to it.
(((((hugs)))))
Yvonne xxx
Thanks yvonne Its great to have the support on here I need it right now!
your right last week was along time ago and Im at the last hurdle now. I dont know whats wrong with me youd think Id be happy that I was here after all the waiting and dont get me wrong I am, im just being silly and emotional lol
thanks again hunni and you take care spk to you tomorrow night to let you know what happens
nikki
Good luck for tomorrow.When I got my dx I had a sense of relief.I’d been so scared and was so certain it would be bad news that I just wanted to get on and get it treated.You will cope,waiting is always the worst bit.Love horacexx
(((Nikki)))
I want to say again I will be thinking of you tomorrow. I completely understand where you at. Not knowing is awful. Im a couple days behind with my wait and I know what I feel now, each day seems worse than the one before so you know you in a worse “waiting” place than me.
Please let us know how it goes
Love and hugs
Juliet
Hope everything went ok for you today and it’s good news.