Hello lovely ladies.
I’m a newbie who is scheduled for lumpectomy surgery on August 22nd. I am 52 years old, with ER+, PR+, HER2- IDC. They are estimating it’s very early stage, on the right breast only, with a grade 1 lump that is 19 mm. Through the MRI and ultrasound, there is no evidence of any spread to the lymph nodes.
I truly lucked out with detection. I was getting mammograms regularly, and nothing was coming up on the scans. I recently changed doctors, and because I have dense breasts, she requested I get an ultrasound as well. They picked up the tumor, which led to a biopsy.
I feel… mixed? Grateful it’s so early. Relieved it appears not to have spread yet. I’m angry at the timing, and I know I’m in massive denial too, because I am fantasizing this is going to be over by Christmas, when intellectually I realize this is lifelong maintenance and vigilance. Not to mention, surgery might reveal more than expected.
Uninformed or no, these are my current concerns: I am more scared about the possibility of lymphedema and the effects of the hormone therapy than the possibility of cancer recurrence. I’m still perimenopausal, and I’m specifically on estrogen and progesterone because I get debilitating migraines when my levels drop, so I’m really worried about blocking and going off the hormones and how I will be able to keep up with my kids and job. Lymphedema especially scares me because I’m an animator and artist and make my living through my arm.
My question: am I being silly and unreasonable for being worried about lymphedema in my arm, when the probabilities are so low? They have given me two options for surgery:
- Lumpectomy, with sentinel lymph node collection, and then maybe I’ll be a candidate for partial, targeted radiation.
- Lumpectomy, no sentinel lymph node collection, but then I have to do Whole breast radiation.
The oncologist and surgeon say that the give and take of the probabilities basically even out the odds, so getting lymphedema in either choice will be equal. But I’m still waxing and waning about which option I should do, given I am scared about getting lymphedema more than anything.
I’d appreciate any thoughts. I’m feeling a bit sheepish being so stressy about this, but thank you for your kindness and wisdom!