Another starting point; this time i hope i get the radiologise that found the vascular mass but could not find what it was feeding and was not sure if she ‘hit’ it when doing biopsies.
I am so fed up with it that this time i have hardly told my own children or parents that i am back again on another push from my GP who is not happy with information given to me so far.
After 3 years they say you would know by now … and so i sit with a large dimple appearing in the right breast and developing nicely; discharge from the nipple sticky and black; mammo classed as normal.
I could really just give up and let go but for my GP saying you cannot imagine the visible signs and he would not settle if it were his wife …
So having lost one husband who walked out unable to cope with my ‘imaginery’ conditions and alienated my family to thinking it not serious I will be at clinic tomorrow on my own.
Scared senseless again … why can i not even get used to this process is it has been every three to six months for three years …
sorry for ramble but i just want to give up and make it stop
You poor thing. You are having a rough time.
Dont give up, you have come so far, and you can keep going.
Tomorrow will be here soon enough - you should air your concerns, and threaten to handcuff yourself to the mammo machine with your bra if you dont get a feasible answer - one that is supported by some evidence of cell analysis etc.
I am sure all of the ladies on here will be rooting for you - you are not alone. We may not be there physically, but I know that if others are the same as me, they will also be thinking about you and thinking positive thoughts.
Lisa X
Hi Oldship
My first test results came back negative after FNA and ‘freehand’ biopsies(6 of them). My mamo screamed ‘highly susp’ and I then had biopsies done under mamo conditions. Two nurses did the tests with me sat in a high chair with pillow at my back for support, boobie clamped into the machine and one nurse guiding the other to the areas required. The mamo machine had a addition put on it to make it scan - the nurses could see exactly where they were going and 6 biopsies later - that got it and it was BC.
I would do like Lisa has said - nag them tomorrow and stress that you cannot go on in limbo not knowing 100%.
My thoughts are with you and fingers xxx you get some results
Anita
back … got the radiologist that could not find the dimple when i lay down! only u/sounded the area not the thorough one who found the vascular mass… this time though they are not doing biopsies as the MRI may have just picked up the damaged area caused by multiple biopsies. So back in asap (two weeks tops) for MRI and then notes put to multi group consideration; then go back again to see what they say next …
No further forward … though today it was called a ‘phenomenon’ previously a ‘conundrum’ and previously my radiologist stormed out saying that breast ‘contradicts its presentation’ …
Am i mad in thinking that today there should be no reason why they cannot identify what is causing it? i am just going to give up this time as everyone now thinks i am making it up for ‘effect’. It has finally beaten me.
Oldship
Don’t let the bugger beat you…you will get to the bottom of this but it is gonna take a few more weeks. I know it is easier said than done - but try not to worry yourself ill…
Don’t bother what anyone else thinks…you yourself are the most important.
Hang on in there and get closure
Anita
Hi Oldship
My dianosis took 5-6 weeks in all. Mammos, ultrasound and biopsies were inconclusive. I had a biopsy under mammo which also was ‘inconclusive’. I think they missed the area too! The biopsy area turned nasty and I ended up and A&E one Sunday morning. Not a pleasant experience. However, the MRI will show up anything nasty - it is a good thing that they are doing it. WHen the final diagnosis came, I had already diagnosed myself.
As Anita says, you need to know exactly what is causing it. Just go through with the MRI and get some answers once and for all!
If you feel silly at the end of it, at least you will be a healthy silly person!!
Lisa X