hi have been to bc today and had a cone biopsy,doctor said she could feel and see on xray small lump,she asked me if i had any questions but at the time i was in shock as i had really convinced myself it was just a cyst and they could drain it,nothing too dramtic! but horrid all the same.so i wasnt expecting her to ask me at that time as i was shaking with shock really,iv been holding it all in for a week now and felt it slipping.why is it i feel i mustnt give way and keep sucking it up! i really want to scream and have a good cry!
have to wait until next tuesday for my results a lifetime! x
Hi weightwatcher,
So sorry that you are here, but be assured that there is a wealth of information on the threads and that you are not alone.
The waiting is horrible, its no consolation, but we have all been there, and all got through it - you will too.
Only advice I can give is that if you want to scream and cry - scream and cry!!
When I found my ‘lump’, I was so concerned about protecting my family that I bottled everything up, everything had a positive spin… Driving home one day, rather than head straight home I drove to an isolated area, parked and screamed!!!
I have now had my surgery and am on number 4 of 8 chemo’s… I still drive to that spot and scream!
I hope that your results are good, keep us updated.
Marguerite
Dear Weightwatcher,
We all know exactly what you’re going through. At each of the tests you just want reassurance and you end up with more uncertainty. You need to have a good scream and talk to someone or post more on here.
When I was going through all the tests, my husband made me agree not to tell anyone else because he didn’t want them all worrying and asking questions. He didn’t really want to talk about it either until we knew the dx. After a few weeks (yes it did take that long from first finding the lump) I broke and I had to talk to one of my friends. It was the right thing to do because they were able to help me think through all the possible outcomes and just knowing what the worst case might be and talking through what would happen made it much easier for me to cope with the waiting.
Is there anyone in your life who could help you through this time?
Take care and post back when you get the result or if you need to vent any other feelings in the meantime.
E xx
Hi there weightwatcher
Your feelings are completely normal and as others have said, it’s not always helpful to bottle things up.
If you feel it will help to talk, do call the helpline, they are great listeners and can offer support and information too.
The number is 0808 800 6000 and they’re open 9-5 Monday to Friday and 9-2 on Saturday.
Kind regards.
Louise
Facilitator