I had a lovely night out with friends last night. I was anxious about going but it brought me back to normality a bit. I treated myself to a glass of wine and have suffered heartburn all night! Downing Gaviscon to try and settle it down. I also don’t think the antidepressants I’m taking help.
Busy day today as all my girlies come home from their dad’s. I’m looking forward to it but also quite anxious about how I’ll be emotionally with the younger two. I’m finding that quite hard. My older girls are in their teens so that is a bit easier.
Morning everyone and Happy New Year’s Eve (if that is an actual thing). Thanks for all the anniversary wishes, we had a lovely evening and I showed off with home made ravioli and mushroom risotto. (No wonder I need the fatbusters).
Emma, I really do get the needle phobia, even though I don’t share it. It must make things much harder. Anyway,your brilliant expression ‘zapping the bugger to kingdom come’ is now firmly in my cancer phrasebook. There don’t seem to be many people around who are ER-/HER+, so we should definitely compare notes as we go through the zapping.
Em, you’re right of course about being better to know. It’s just feeling a bit like a giant helter shelter right now, round every bend there’s another drop. Anyway it really doesn’t matter what I feel, I’m definitely going for that scan on Wednesday.
Silverlady, a chemo bag is a made-up expression for the bag I’m putting everything in. Once you start looking around for advice you find that chemo seems to involve collating a huge number of items. In fact the last time I gathered so many things together it was for giving birth! I only had to buy a bag because I didn’t have anything that’s both light enough to carry and big enough to get everything in. I may be being a bit ott (I hate not being prepared), but this is my list to date:
slippers/socks/thermos (for ice)/ sparkling water/ ginger sweets/ book 1 (serious)/ book 2 (lightweight in case I can’t concentrate on book 1/ magazine (in case I really can’t read)/ iPad/ charger/ mini fan (in case I’m hot) / cashmere wrap (in case I’m cold) / journal to write down side effects etc/ notebook for brilliant thoughts (they may be few)/ hoodie (for when I’m bald). Told you it was ott.
Hope everyone’s day goes well, I’ll be glad to see off 2016.
Hahaha - **bleep** brilliant Strudel, I nearly fell off the sofa laughing - what with my slightly off white knickers and bra, that would be my fear as well. ???
You’ve hit the nail on the head, I am worried about being knocked as I am still very sore and a pub environment can be quite enclosed.
Ali - I love your chemo list, I don’t think I will be needing a notebook for brilliant thoughts though. ??
Omg that’s a great site, though I now need a bigger bag, Strudel.
Emma aka Scotty, I really do believe this is the ‘best’ thread. I literally lurked for two weeks trying to decide where to jump in. When I realised I was laughing out loud over and over at a cancer forum, I knew it was the right place. Of course there will be others tugging at our heartstrings, but your first love thread is the one that sets you up for ever. (I may have been on ‘different’ forums to learn that lesson).
Catch you all later. We aren’t going out because I’ve got cancer. That’s a lie, we aren’t going out because I hate New Year’s Eve parties, and so always say no. I find two bottles of champagne and a large plate of profiteroles essentially are all you need for a perfect night in. Company optional, Jools Holland compulsory. Although I’m still slightly heartbroken from the discovery that it’s not live and all those celebrities aren’t giving up NYE for our entertainment.
Lovely having my girlies home Helena. Just one to come back from work then we’re going out for the evening. We live in a small village so everyone gets together at New Year. The kids love it. Part of me wants to stay tucked up at home but I’m going to make the effort and hopefully have a nice night.
Well I’m quite proud of myself - I’ve stripped my bed, the dogs bed, washed my windows (dog drool), washed my leather sofa (dog paw prints) got loads of washing through the washing machine. I’m tired, but I feel normal.
I’m now watching Star Trek, cause I am a closet Trekkie.
We don’t celebrate New Years Eve, never have done, but I love Christmas Eve.
Well I’ve not been on the iPad all day and have missed pages and pages of chat - just had a quick catch up on my phone but it’s not as easy to read! I’m with you on the washing front - was always told if you wash on New Year’s Day you’ll wash all year - bit like if you cry on your birthday, you’ll cry all year. Mind you felt a bit like that was true as my birthday was the day after my biopsies when I was told I’d almost definitely got cancer!
Everyone seems upbeat today which is just what I needed as woke in a very negative frame of mind this morning. Think the fact that my daughter is returning to London after a week at home didn’t help. Feels a bit like back to reality after all the Christmas celebrations.
Had a giggle at your underwear comments Strudel - I’ve actually thrown away all my underworked bras as am finding the crop tops so comfy. Will be going to M and S once all my treatments finished to get fitted for some comfy bras!!
We’re having a quiet night in tonight - turned down several offers in favour of a night in front of the TV. OH will be cooking steak later and I’ve put one of those little bottles of prosecco in the fridge - last of the big drinkers that’s me!!
Not sure if any of you are on anastrazole, but only been on it for 5 days and am having more hot flushes already and have had a headache for the last 2 days. Might not be connected at all but keeping an eye on it.
Anyway let’s raise a toast to a happy and healthier 2017 for us all. I’m sure there will be ups and downs but with our mutual appreciation society we’ll come out the other side!!
Love Jane xx
Just read back and Emily - re the cording - mine feels just like a bruise without a bruise there if that makes sense. It starts under my arm at the hand side of the arm pit if that makes sense and when I press it, you can feel a hard ridge quite deep down. I also have it under my boob down the side of my ribs.
I giggled at your shopping trip Sarah - when I wrapped my ‘children’s’ (27 and 24) Christmas gifts I’d bought so much - because I wasn’t up to shopping i’d just kept ordering things online, and I’d forgotten just what I’d ordered. They ended up with about 10 parcels each! And I’d been worrying is not bought enough!!
Hi all … Happy New Year ?
Well me and my hubby definitely had a quiet one … tucked up and fast asleep before midnight ? Didn’t even wake up to any ? fireworks …
I didn’t take back my “shopping trip” yesterday so that’s my plan for today …
hope nobody is too hungover … enjoy whatever you have planned … Sarah xxxx
Morning all, let’s hope for a better 2017. I can’t be the only one reeling still (and I don’t mean I saw the new year in Scottish dancing). Jo, I’m probably can’t say much to help, but I’m thinking of you. One thing I’m finding useful now is to try to get as much pleasure as possible from each actual day. It’s quite hard work, but reminding myself of that aim is helping hold back the tide of panic when it rolls in. Ali x
i had my surgery on Friday … lymph nodes clear? They explained something went wrong in theatre and the hospital are investigating but as they told me and my husband on discharge we didn’t really take it in … something to do with not being earthed and there I was burnt during surgery ??? Will find out on Friday in the wound follow appointment. I was quite chirpy yesterday morning when family visited then yesterday afternoon/evening went downhill (didn’t tell my husband though). Today I feel exhausted (was in bed at 9pm last night). Feel like I am in a dream.
I have read through the last few days posts here and have to say ‘chemo bag’ made me laugh and I can see that despite everyone’s plight we must keep positive and cheerful… many thanks for messages on how I am too. I am unable to keep track of everyone individually at the moment as foggy but will try again…