Im on my first lot of chemo and not coping well at all . im a former emetaphobic , i had hypno which cured the fear years ago but after living like that till 30 plus it still worries me some especially at times like this.
I know there are so many more awful side effects to come yet and they also worry me. so far im battling the nausea …taking the tablets given and eating all the nibbly things when i can . drinking enough too. I also woke in the night with dead pic line arm so that sent me into a panic but spoke with nurses and all moving and fine now. im also having tummy jabs every day atm too…unpleasant but ok.
also the deppresion and tears that come with it random over hair going, feeling a mess, and feeling totoally unlike me and pretty useless in every way dosnt help. My 13 year old son keeps me going but seriously 5 more to go …can i really do it ?
Im a positive person in all but this is already killing my soul.
but saying all that im most grateful i have a lifeline and hope at the end of it unlike so many .
Hey Bev. Sorry you’re feeling so bad and sad. I think lots of us feel/felt the same. I’m coming up to my fourth round of chemo and have felt really down sometimes. Feeling bad is normal; you will have good days, though. Hang on in there. Get on some of the monthly threads. The women on there are so supportive and understanding. Re the vomiting, have they given you Emend?
Hi Bev, like you I also have a vomiting phobia that I have kept under control for many years but came back with a vengeance when I knew I was to have chemo. Being sick was the only se that I was worried about. I asked for and was given Emend and that along with a concoction of other anti sickness tabs done the trick, although I did end up in hospital after my first chemo due to a total panic attack because I couldn’t eat or drink so panicked cause I couldn’t swallow my anti sickness tabs. I was put on Iv antiemetics. After that episode I swore I would never have anymore chemo, but I did. I swore after the second chemo I wouldn’t go back, but I did again. Your team can help with any se that comes up, so keep a diary and discuss with them at your pre chemo appointment. You will be fine.
ps. I started my chemo 23 September 2014. I had 4 out of 6 planned fec but was advised after the 4th not to continue as I became very very ill. I was soooooo disappointed I didn’t get my full quota, after previously considering not going back after the first two !!!