There’s always hope. It’s the unknowns with cancer that are so difficult. The idea of what could happen is always worse than the reality.
You are strong. You’ve been through so much already. Feel your feelings and accept them. I understand what you are going through.
Waiting on CT results is the absolute worst part. I remember that feeling of just wanting to know one way or the other so I could face it.
I wanted to give you the positive news you are looking for. My dear friend had 18 lymph nodes removed and 17 were cancerous. She is just over half way through her chemo and results couldnt be better. She is eating a targeted plan of food and supplements taking the time to meditate and do things that keep her cortisol under control. Dont spend time looking up things that cause cancer, lookup the things that you can do to help your body, mind and spirit. I recently had a double mastectomy, with PAP reconstruction from my thighs. 14 hour surgery that left me unable to move at first. I’m 51, fit and healthy (so i thought!). I am using everything in me to look at the positives and realise how lucky i am to be going through this in an age where there is so much advancement in treatment. But the biggest advice i can give you is to nourish yourself, your body and your mind. You have absolutely GOT THIS, you just have to believe that and look after yourself accordingly. Sending the biggest love. Xxxxx
How you are feeeling is totally normal I was referred for a CT scan due to having 4 positive nodes I was also told 4 or more meant a scan I was terrified but all was fine, now I look back I’m glad a had the scan otherwise would I always have wondered if it was anywhere else? I also have 4 kids it’s tough but I’m now finished with chemo and part way through radiotherapy it’s all more manageable than you think at the beginning xx lots of love your way xx
Does it matter how many nodes are affected? I know in my area 4 triggers a scan, but wondered if the amount that are diseased out of the total taken makes a higher risk of spread or does that not make a difference?
@debbiek1 What a positive lady you are, well done for getting this far with your treatment, my god you have done so well.
Please don’t worry to much about radiotherapy I and many other found this easy part of the treatment, it not a walk in the park, you can get sore, and very tired. also travelling depending how far you have to go.
Wishing you well, with lots of happiness going forward
With the biggest hugs Tili 
Hi I had HER2 positive with a 42mm mass. I had a PETCT Scan as well as 2 MRI’s along the way as routine, then chemo, then surgery. Please don’t worry. It’s good to have as much investigation as possible. Best wishes x
Have you thought of going to a Maggie’s centre? Popping in for a cup of tea and talking to someone was really helpful for me and gave me the reassurance I needed as well as suggesting things to ask etc.
I had two surgeries and have just finished 5 months of chemotherapy. I start 15 sessions of radiotherapy next week. My breast cancer was invasive so I also had cancerous lymph nodes removed. I had the results of my post-chemo scan last week which had no concerns recorded. 
I’ve also had an MRI of my bowel and liver which was also clear! I couldn’t be more relieved or thankful!
Hang in there; it’s a scary time but you will be well supported and it’s amazing how the treatment becomes your routine and you manage to push through.
Being with family and friends and talking has carried me along. I know I’ve got hormone therapy and targeted therapy to come to prevent a recurrence, but I’m feeling optimistic and well.
I hope this gives you some positivity and that your results and treatment plan are positive and don’t forget you’re not alone, even on the days when you feel you’re spiralling try to reach out as there’s so much support available x
Definitely the right call to tell the kids. I told mine in October and was very factual and calm. Haven’t always totally held it together these past 7 months, but I was advised it’s much better they know why than sense our distress and imagine worse things. Hope you’re feeling ok today xx
I think that is right. On the whole I feel like it is the right thing, I think at times when they ask questions I can’t answer, or if it is something that feels sad it is a bit more challenging. I think we just want to protect them don’t we. x