Further lump found on MRI. IDC & ILC triple hormone positive in same breast, different quadrants. Disappointed I haven’t managed to get BRCA test despite high family history. Mastectomy in 2 weeks with recon. I haven’t found my breast nurse very helpful or has any time which hasn’t helped. Wasn’t aware of radiation process the day before surgery so when appointment letter came in post I went into a panic 
I’m dreading the next stages. What can I expect post surgery with drains & recovery which will be over xmas holidays. Any good advice with basic care etc. I have autoimmune condition so can struggle at the best of times.
I’m finding it difficult to get my head around the recon side & what I will look like with one natural & one implant. I feel I should be more focused on the removal of cancer but my mind seems constantly fixated on what I am going to look like 
Hi @liz9 I’m sorry I can’t offer any advice as I am still early in my journey but I wanted to say hi 
I’m so sorry you are having a hard time. There are helplines offered here, I’m still a newbie so I don’t know how to attached them but I’m sure someone will. They might be able to give you more information and some more reassurance.
I just wrote on another post that I made myself look at lots of different mastectomy and reconstruction photos. These things are always much worse in our heads. Even here in this forum I have read a lot of positive reviews about people’s reconstructions. Lots of women love their new boobs. No doubt we will all mourn our old boobs but we ca ’t focus backwards too much. What’s done is done now. New year new boobs here we come with an added bonus of being cancer free 
Sending you hugs