Hello all
Well, it is 3 years since dx on 3rd September, and i am still feeling angry and frustrated.
I am still grieving for my lost breast, am hating the recon with a passion and have no idea how to move forward.
On the outside i seem to have gotten on with life, but on the inside, i am cross, hateful of my body and at times, just wish every woman had to go through losing a part of their body that they quite liked!
To top it all , i working on taking my former hospital to court for gross cliniclal negligence. The surgeon in question peformed such a dreadful recon on me, so much so that my implant extruded through my skin and left a gaping hole in my skin! It was horrid and those images how haunt me, in the form of photos which were taken by my new surgeon who had to put it right for me.
I am now in the process of trying to start a legal case with the former hosptial for clinical negligence.
My solicitor posted me the photos of the 'failed 'recon for my records and i was so shocked that i have not been able to look at them again - and that was a week ago!
I just want to move on, but feel that i need to try and take action against the hospital, to achieve at least something from the mess which was created.
Thanks for reading.
Naz
Oh Naz how dreadful for you.
All I can say is that I hope you feel better about your new recon soon even if it does not happen until the court case is over. That will seem a long time away right now I know.
We all go thru a period of hating our recon and feeling violated - you must doubly feel that way - not only violated by the cancer but also by the first surgeon.
Well done you for fighting - you go girl! Fight so that no one else has to go thru what you have and so that you can achieve as you say at least something out of the mess,
Best wishes and hugs
Liz x
Thank you so much for your kind words Liz,
Sometimes i get these 'down days, where i dwell on the past …
I so want to like my recon, but at the mo, that seems a long way away…
Naz x
Naz that is awful,i could cry for you.some people seem so flippant when its not them going thru it,if only they could get a look inside our heads and see how devastating things are for us.Hope you can sue the pants off your former surgeon,you go girl,good luck with it and hope you get some sort of satisfaction and hope you can be happy with the end result.
love and best wishes,
Di.x
Naz, Just sending you a hug. Cannot begin to imagine what you are going through. Have you been able to get anyone to do anything to improve your problem with you breast op. I had mine tweeked but that was many many years ago. You may find it easier to cope with if they sorted the failed procedure. Perhaps a referral to a specialist hospital to see what they could advise? Hugs anyway. Val